Story of the boy who sold the world

2007-12-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

A new year is borned,
A new life,
And hope,
For mankind..

Thus,
This will be my last and final entry,
On this first ever blog of mine..

Visit my new world,
at,
www.chasing-delilah.blogspot.com
To uncover my new life,
At 2007..

Thus,
What past is past,
Let it rest..

It's time to move on..

2006-11-16T01:50:00.000+08:00

When the rain is gone,
The sun starts to rise,
When the Sun fades silently,
The stars then took over..

When winter is gone,
Spring commences it's time,
When Summer can no longer stay,
Then the leaves,
will start to fall..

It's been almost 1 month since,
My fingers touched,
The hard-shapes of the keyboard,
and the smooth sensation of the mouse..

And I can finally glimpse into the screen,
and set my eyes free..
Free to seek,
Free to see,
Anywhere anyhow,
From my well-wedded house,
To an amazing world..

Many think that,
I'm already dead.
The blogs are already useless..

Everything that has a beginning,
Has their end..

I had a beginning,
And it was all in the past..

But I rise from the dead,
And came back home,
Just to type my feelings here,
once again..

AmeeR HaSsAaN Is Back!
I Ain't Dead Yet!

*Is This The Start of Something New?

2006-10-05T03:20:00.000+08:00

A shadowed destiny,
an empowered fate
A tale of emancipations,
I adhere not to
And as the mystical cries hollowed me,
I surrendered to the chaos beneath
What vision am I empowering?
And whose face do I see in those eyes?
The voices of despair echoed,
In my dark and shattered heart
Until when shall I perceive,
Till when shall a Miracle befall me?
Tis battle has been fought too long,
This will could fall any moment..
As I drop on bended knees,
The gates of hope start to open,
And as the angels started to sing,
I realised that everything,
That has a beginning,

Has An End..

-Thoughts of The PoeT
aMeR HaSsAaN

The Story of The Man,
That Yearns For True Love..

A hundred nights I lied awake,
Tossing and turning,
Finding the correct spot and comfort..
The atmosphere seems to heat up,
Although the air-conditioned is switched on..

I asked myself,
And gazed at the stars,
Is there a meaning behind every occasion,
Or it's just a word called coincidence,
That strucks like a clock in our life..
Tick-tock here,and everywhere..

These comfy pillows will not just do,
But it's all I have,
Instead of a Miracle..
To thousand of stars I'd cried to,
To the blue and full moon,
I adhere my cries and my hollows..

When will a Miracle drop by to earth,
To end my grieving and endless pain..
Tis Heart is a bag full of sorrow,
Flowing through time,
Like a broken arrow..

Love is beauty,
Love is wonderful,
Love is a cure for hatred,
And Love is the Universal sign,
Of Brotherhood..

But why do these clouds,
Seemed to cover it away,
Apart from my vision,
And away from my heart?

What meaning is it trying to uncover,
What message is in the bottle?

These thoughts penetrate through my mind..
Tis Heart yearns for Love,
It seeks for Love,
It hears da sound of every heartbeat..
It's innocent and pure..
Just one asking,
To find One True Love..

But my conquest and journey,
Is always disturbed..
Either by the obstacles of present,
Or the echoes of the past..

I would do it all to fight any single soul,
That comes in my way..
I would do it all,
Just to meet the one & only one..

But I was born with patience,
And that changes my thoughts..

Many mistakes have I made,
Many roads I have twisted,
But there's always a reason behind my actions..
Coz I'm just a man that yearns for one true love..

I just wanna feel,
Real Love?
Is that too much to ask for?

Love can never be forced,
And Love has limited perseverance..
A man is blinded by circumstances,
due to his ego and hatred..

But I stayed months and months,
To show the meaning of my true love..
But God is fair,
he knows that someone out there,
loves me so much more..
That's why,
He made me leave..

I'm still walking..
To find this purpose of life..
To the road that led to Happiness..
Coz I'm just a man,
That Yearns for True Love..

-aMeR HaSsAaN

2006-10-04T07:00:00.000+08:00

Hanya Dirimu,
Yang Bisa, Membuatku Tenang..
Tanpa Dirimu,
Aku Merasa Hilang, Dan Sepi..

-Dewa, Dealova

True Love never dies,
As we see in our eyes..
Only when we let go,
We can trully say goodbye..

I know I'm In Love,
When I see the world in her eyes,
And her eyes,
Everywhere in the world..

Love,
Is Patient and Kind..
It's Never Jealous,
Nor Conceited..

I don't regret being once in love,
I only regretted loving someone,
Who never loves me the way I do..

It's better to be loved by someone,
Who loves you..
Than to love someone,
Who never loves you..

A boy met 2 qualities,
Love & Friendship..
The boy asked Love:
"Why do you exist?"
Love said:
"To bring everlasting Happiness,
To unite 2 hearts becoming 1."
The boy then asked Friendship:
"Why do you exist then?"
"To wipe the tears on the faces,
When Love walks away.."

To Love,
There's two ways..
1) Find it.
2) Wait for it.

A thief,
Who steals other's love,
Will in return,
His/Her Love being stolen,
By others..

A stolen love,
could never last long..
An avenged love,
Would live temporary..
A sympathised love,
Would deny happiness..
Coz these love all stood,
On no pure foundations..
And Eventually,
It will fall..

If your love doesn't work out,
With that someone,
It means that,
Someone else loves you more..

To Love..
Can be associated with 3 birds..
The Eagle..
-It make things happen,
Strikes at the correct time & place..
The Vulture..
-It wait for things to happen,
Strikes at a later time..
The Chicken..
-It wonders what will happen,
Strikes at a time, where nobody knows..

The Rules & Regulations of Life,
Can be graded as follows..
Excellent
1) You Know What You Know..
Good
2) You Know What You Don't Know..
Bad
3) You Don't Know What You Know..
Worst
4) You Don't Know What You Don't Know..

If I had 100 days, to live,
I wouldn't want to live up to only 99 days,
Coz I cannot bear,
To live a single day without you..

I would love you until the end,
of my very last breath..
But I would still love you,
Even after that..

A lot of people have they loved,
But my love for you is different,
Because it has never own you..

These are the current thoughts & theories,
That flows through my mind..
These are the words that carved through my heart..

-aMeR HaSsAaN

2006-10-04T06:20:00.000+08:00

Shadows of The Echoes..

The wind blew in every direction,
These echoes sounded in every room
Beneath those clouds I hear a voice,
Whose voice is left unheard,
In my ear?
Memories of the past,
Remained a shattered memory
It's like day without the sun,
& It's like night without the moon..
The needle pointed aimlessly,
The future offered,
A ruined destiny..
I battled time & fate,
To prove my righteous deeds..
But beaten deadly by Fate,
I knew that Love..
Is already Dead..

-aMeR HaSsaAN

Today,
Marks the 2nd of October 2006.
Today Is A very Special Day..
It's the birthday of a Very Special Friend,
Whom I knew since Sec 1..

To Ameera Hanim,
I, Ameer Hassaan,
Would like to wish you a very,
Happy 17th Birthday..

Wish you all the best in your O' Levels,
And Endless Success,
In your entire lifetime..
You have the potential of capturing your dreams,
I always had faith in you,
You can do it..
I know you can..

A little something about her,
We met in sec 1,
During the early and kentalan days,
of aMeR HaSsAaN..
She remained very sweet till now,
Very humble,
Very Kind & Sociable..
She's the girl,
That every guy dreamed of..

It's like we have met before,
This special feeling that never fades..
1 thing that puzzles me was her name..
My name is very rare..
It's hard to find a name of Ameer Hassaan
And it's a miracle,I met the female version,
of my name..
That is Ameera Hanim..
haha..
And we're Octoberians..
Go Figure.

She always reminded me of Kristen Kreuk,
The leading actress of Smallville..
Her smiles were like Lana Lang..
and whenever she appeared,
I felt as though I'm Superman..
Clark Kent & Tom Welling..
I would dream of saving her life,
and fly her to the sky..

haha..
Big Dreams Boy..Big dreams..
But she remained very very humble..
Datz one thing I adore about her..
And she remains a good female role model..
And she holds da qualities,
That I would always look out for,
If I wanna get married,
And settle down..

All the best I'd wish to her..
Coz I know,
That she deserve a guy,
so so much better than me..
haha..
It's da truth..

May you be Happy,
Always..
My Prayers will always guide you..
Throughout your entire lifetime..

*I always sing to others,
With the guitar strummed,
And the notes rhyming..
But I always dreamt of a girl,
That would take away my guitar,
And sing to me..
With her harmonious melody..
And put me to sleep..
Where could such voice & beauty,

Be Found?

2006-10-03T07:46:00.000+08:00

The Chaos Beneath

A hundred nights I'd lay awake,
Tossing and turning, my heart about..
These comfy pillows will not just do..
Those shivering wind,won't blow me to sleep..
Thousand of doubts run through my mind..
Are they my fears,
Or are they just my imaginations?
Piercing through my clouded judgement..
These dreams I had,
Are they for real,
Or are they just premonitions,
Of sumthing dat has yet to come..
What if tranquility awakes me,
Forever from these nightmares?
Will it be a relief of joy,
Or will it be a start of a new curse?
if tomorrow never comes,
At least i knew i had lived today..

-aMeR HaSsaAN

Woke up late at noon,
My body's aching,
and my mind's a whirlpool..

Have not been eating much since puasa..
I have been cutting down on lots of food..
Even my grandma's shock,
She nagged and nagged,
asked me to it..
Same goes to my uncles..
God,i just don't wanna eat..

I just have no appetite..
It's a feeling that i can't explain..

The gym has been a 2nd home for me..
I would spend hours there,
Exercising and lifting weights..
I had all the fats i wanted,
And now I'm converting it to muscles..

Best Moment of October,
Part 1
And guess wart..
Yesterday had been the best moment of my life..
An online friend has finally chatted with me..
We always contact through tagboard,
And now we're on Msn..
It's funny though,
I hardly know her,
But i feel dat it's as if,
I have already know her..
Perhaps in my previous lifetime,
We could have met..

And the thing is,
She shares a lot of things in common with me..
Like PPIS,
We attended the same Kindergaten,
We are both Javanese,
We both like history..
My oh my..
But it's nice meeting her..
And there is more to come..
Gd luck for your exams!

well,
life has definitely been great for me..
In this wonderful month,
I just adore it..

2 more weeks to school..
I can't wait..

I am suffering a disease,
called Missingphotamia,
It's an illness when I miss someone,
so so much..

I miss P.o.G,
I miss disturbing Aizat!
I miss gay-ing with Yazid!
I miss laughing out with Lee!
I miss hanging out with Effy!
I miss Bro Hafiz's terrible laughter,
And his jokes and pranks!
I miss being lame to Is,
I miss Ayn's presence,
I miss Lyn's face!
I miss syak's jokes and smile!
I miss Nani's massages!

I MISS P.O.G!!!

*And there is something about you now,
That I can't quite figure out..
Everything You'd do,
Is beautiful..
And there is just something about u..

2006-10-02T01:45:00.000+08:00

Memoirs of A Vocalist

Everyday,
Seemed so wonderful..
When Suddenly,
It's hard to breathe..

Now and then,
I get Insecure..
From all the pain,
I'm so ashamed..

You are beautiful,
In Every Single way..
And Words Can Never Bring You Down..

We Are Beautiful My Friends..
In Each and Every Way..
Words Can Never Bring Us Down..

Selamat Berpuasa,
Semoga Selalu Beribadah,
Dan Mungkin Nanti,
Kita akan Bertemu Lagi..

*I MIss P.O.G..

-aMeR HaSsaAN

2006-10-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

When The Cold Win Blows,
In October..

In the mornings,
I'd walk on four,
Crawling in tears & fears
All throughout the years..

For Wherever I may go,
To Whatever I may do..

In The Afternoon,
I'd walk on 2,
Standing proud and tall,
My dreams they bring me everywhere..

For Wherever I may go,
To Whatever I may do..

And In the nights,
I'd walk on 3,
These eyes would only see,
And reflect,of what's left of me..

For Wherever I may go,
To Whatever I may do..

What Am I?

Gd Morning To One and All,
To The Fine Genlemens,
& The Beautiful Ladies..
Welcome To A New Life..

As Dawn Starts To break,
The Sun emerges with it's shining ray..
All throughout the end of summer,
Hereby I welcome you,
To the month,
of,

OCTOBER...

Yes yes yes,
It's 1st October 2006!
The Month of all Octoberians,
The Month,
Where Me & Aslynda,
Will stand tall,
And say,
Our time has finally come..

1 week has passed,
And boy,
I'd say time really flies..
We don't see it,
But we know it does..
And if u really wanna see time fly,
Don't worry, u always can..
JUst go to your window,
And throw your clock away..
You will see time fly..
Hahahaha..
It's true..
If you wanna fly too,
U know what to do.
Go Figure.

Well,
I have been posting lately,
But it's all about reflections,
Premonitions & Poems..
Nothing much related to my life..

So here I am,
To share a story,
of what aMeR HaSsAaN,
Has been through..

This month has really enlightened me..
Seriously it does..
It opened up my heart,
And I have never failed to attend terawih..
People say it's too tiring,
Too long,
And perhaps difficult to attend..
But in 1 year,
How often can we attend terawih?

So What Ustaz Doctor Ahmad Dahri said,
Really really makes sense..
He is my role model..
And I have plans of pursuing Islamic Studies,
With Bestie Hafiz Jabbar..
I feel better dying 1 day,
With a knowledge of God,
Rather than diplomas or degrees..
No matter how high u study,
If agama u ditepikan,
Where will you stand,
in the afterlife?

Hehez..
Dat really make sense..
So apart from dat,
I spend my time solely at home,
Either studying for O's,
Playing the Piano,
Or compose new songs on the guitar..

And guess wart,
Mummy said that upon december,
When daddy gets his super duper bonus,
She's gonna buy me a car!
Juz kidding..
She's gonna buy me my own Violin!
And send me for courses..
Wow..i really love this..
I mean,
Finally,
I can spend my time with Violins..

The melody is so different from the guitar..
But 1 thing I'm heran about,
Can u sing while playing the violin?
Coz I don't see anyone doing dat..
Maybe I'll look stupid playing Violin,
And Singing at the same time..

Thus..

1 week has passed,
3 more weeks to go..
15 more days to skool,
1 month plus to O' Levels..

Time really plays a vital part,
In my life..
I hope,
this time I'll do well..
And study at a Junior College,
And then N.S,
Attend O.C.S,
And then University,
Or Islamic Studies,
Get a degree,
And attend Flight School..
Graduate,
And become a Pilot..
And an Ustaz..

After that,
Buy a landed-property,
And live with my parents,
And get,
All the love in the world..
All my sisters will get married,
and off they go..
It's time I become,
The anak kesayangan,
Once again..
hehez..
The Only son katakan..

For 1 Minute,
You have just seen the plans,
Of AmeR HaSsAaN..
With Big Dreams,
Comes Great Effort..

Someday & Somehow,
That is Where,
I wanna be..
Pray For Me ayte..

Well..

October Rain has finally come,
This is the only month where i call home..
12 more days,
To the day I arrived into this world..
I am growing up seh..
My oh my..

And last night,
around midnight,
I didn't know wheter it's real or not,
But a very very special someone,
Messaged me..
hehez..
I couldn't believe my eyes,
But I had the time of my life..
She is just so special,
My steps seemes broken when I walk,
I start to sutter when I talk..
Call it crazy,
Call it insane,
But when my heart beats,
It feels dat way..
hehez..
What voice am I hearing,
Behind those clouds?

Alright,
Until here i will post..
Until more interesting events happening,
That is when,
I'll come back..

Till then,
I walk alone..

*Is the end of a sad story,
And the birth,
Of a New Hope?

2006-09-30T03:00:00.000+08:00

BintanG Di Syurga..

Masih ku merasa angkuh
Terbang kenanganku jauh
Langit kan menangkapku
Walau kan terjatuh..

Dan bila semua tercipta
Hanya untuk ku merasakan
Semua yang tercipta
Hampa hidup terasa..

Lelah tatapku mencari
Arti untukku membagi
Menemani langkahku
Namun tak berarti..

Dan bila semua tercipta
Tanpa harus ku merasakan
Cinta yang tersisa
Hampa hidup terasa..

Bagai bintang di syurga
Dan seluruh warna
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata..

Oh bintang di syurga
Berikan cerita
Dan kasih yang setia
Dan cahaya nyata..

-aMeR HaSsAaN

2006-09-28T16:09:00.000+08:00

Hanya Dirimu Yang Bisa,
Membuatku Tenang..
Tanpa Dirimu Aku Merasa,
Hilang..
Dan Sepi..
Ku merindui,
Setiap detik,
Bila Terkenang Wajahmu..

Tanpa kehadiranmu,
Emosi tak terkawal,
Tiap saat hatiku berdebar,
Tiap detik lah namamu disebut..

Tersungkur,
Terkenang..
Aku lemas di dalam panggilan cinta..

Skrang baruku mengerti,
Apakah bahasa cinta ini..

Hati ini enggan mendengar,
Segala sebutan yang dikata..
Ia sekadar hanya mahu merasa,
bahasa cinta buat selamanya..

Mengapa wajahmu di mana-mana..
Walaupun bila mata ini ditutup..
Semua cermin kelihatan pecah,,
Semua Langsir hampir jatuh..

Arah kehidupan kelihatan sengsara..
Makna duniaku kendengaran kelam..

Sehingga bilakah harus ku menanti,
Untuk sebuah keajaiban di hidupku,
ini?

-aMeR HaSsaAN

Rise of Ramadhan

2006-09-28T14:04:00.000+08:00

A hundred nights,
I lied awake..
Disturbed by these noises,
I adhere not to..
The door of the past slided upon,
I weakly try to close it..
Not wanting to reflect..
What if time brought me back,
To mend my mistakes,
Fears and doubts?
Will this be a blessing,
Or the birth,
of a new mistake?

Too many questions,
I need an answer..
As I lay weakly on heaven's ground,
I awaited a miracle,
Not knowing good or bad,
My fate all lies in a prayer..
If tomorrow never comes,
At least I knew I lived today..
My Destiny now lies on me,
Which ever path I'd choose,

I decide the beauty of my dreams..

-Thoughts of The PoeT
aMeR HaSsAaN

Forgive my absence,
Accept my humble apology..
Time has taken me away,
And time reflects the last time,
I posted..

It has been 5 days since I went online..
So many things occured..
The blessed,
And the cursed..
Too many questions,
I need an answer..
For These doubts will always grow..

Ramadhan,
The holy month,
Which we live,
Before sunrise,
And after sunset..
Without consuming,
Food nor Drinks..

This is a month that tested,
Our patience and abilities..
A month that God wanted,
Us to feel,
How empty the stomachs,
How roofless the houses,
How dry the throats were,
How empty the pockets were,
And how to treasure,
Things or people,
Which we carelessly ignore,
In the past..

4 days have passed,
And all 4 days I never failed,
To both fast,
And attend Terawih..
I realised As I grow,
I develop qualities,
That make me a better person..

Patience,
Perseverance,
Humbility..

These qualities mould me,
It guided me,
To ensure a better life..

And about 4 days,
I lived in silence,
Away from Media,
And away from communication..

A Small Tragedy occured,
Between me and my bestie..

To My Bestie,
Life is never a bed full of roses,
For even the roses itself have thorns..
Life is always full of ups and downs,
Last time i brought u high on the pinnacle,
But this time we're brought back down..

A lot of people if they in my shoes,
Would have given up..
And walked away..
From this endless suffering..

They will rather not come back,
For what reason,
And benefit,
Might they get?

But those people could only be in my shoes,
But never fit the shoe i'm wearing,
(Not becoz i have Mcdonalds feet!)
But because they can never be me..
And there could only be one..

I already forgave and forget on that day,
It's just I need time in silence,
To attain salvation in myself..

You're the first female bestfriend I'd have,
And I'll make sure the road u take is not rough,
But smooth and steady,

I'll make sure the Tea u drink is not too hot,
And not too cold..

I'll make sure Life is not too easy,
And not too hard for you..

I'll make things better for you..
Coz u're one of the important ppl in my life..

Though others might not see,
Someday I'll make them,
U just need time to learn..

And i'll won't be in front,
Won't be at the back,
I won't Be up high either,
But i would be beside you..
And walk with you,
All along the journey of your life..

It's hard,
I know..
But I thing is for sure..
I'll never give up..

You will be Somebody,
Whom is respected,
As long as u're willing,
To stand by me..

Coz,
Every word I say Is true..
And,
This I promise you..

-To My Bestie..

This month I really await for,
Coz this is the month,
Where somehow,
The Holy Side of me,
Has Risen..

Prayers I always attend,
Terawih I love the moments..
And to Fast,
Is what I must..

Coz I always told myself,
What if this,
Would be my last ramadhan?
What Have I done,
As Muslim,
To achieve the requirements,
of God?

I'm still Far Away..
But I won't stop learning..
Until I become a better man,
That is where Love has to wait..

Until Then,
I'll post again..
Until Then..
I walk alone..

*Somehow,
you reminded me of her,
your ways and movements..
It brought the past back..
And haunts my every sleep..

-
aMeR HaSsAaN

2006-09-23T17:45:00.000+08:00

My EmanCiPaTioN..

Seasons by seasons,
The clouds weakly adapt..
As The Past Mistook me,
The Future Embraced me..
What If Forever ends Today,
Will there be a Miracle to our lives,
Or there will be generations of pouring rain..
These figures matters me not,
These statics worries me not..
I strongly stand on Confidence,
Based on my livelihood Foundations..
Where would I be,
20 years from now
As tranquility awakes me..
Immortalisation seduces me..
And as all these crimes starts to drown peace,
I sink helplessly beneath,

As I call for Justice..

-Thoughts of The PoeT
aMeR HassaAN

Greetings to my readers,
Accept my humble apologies,
For my delays,
And Absence,
Of Posting..

On A Very Faithful,
Wedenesday, 21 September..
There was a Sentosa Outing,
Among The P.o.G

Not all were there,
I wished they were present..

And those tanned-peeps,
(or already tanned before-Aizat! haha)
who were present,
were as follows..

-Is
-Syak
-Hafiz Bro
-Wani Sis
-Aizat
-Effendi
-Lin
-Firaj
-Ayn
-& Fana

I would like to take this oppurtunity,
To thank every single one of these souls..
For making the event a Hapenning One..
I really loved being with you guys..
Hope that we'll go out together again..

Too bad we were broke..
If not,
We could take the rides,
Or even go to some places,
Like,
-Underwaterworld
-Fort Siloso..

But still,
I'm thankful My Frenz were there..
Cheers Guys..

Below Is SOme Pictures of me..
Wanna thank the photographers,
For doing me a favour..
*Effy
*Ayn

CHeck them out!

Dad! Don't Leave Me! At Least Give Yr Account Number!
Aynnizza and A Future Singapore IdoL..
I'll Go wherever My Delilah Will Go..The Mat-Rep of Sentosa..

Now I Know why Aizat says I cannot be a Mat..Mendaki! See This Now! I'll return again to you...
Someday.. & Somehow..

I will Be a Talented Musician..
I won't stop praying..
Until the day i die..

Datz all folks..
More pictures coming your way,
So visit us at
www.partyoranggila.blogspot.com
For More & Exciting Details..

Till Then,
I Walk Alone..

2006-09-22T05:45:00.000+08:00

My ambition,
Is Not Just To be a Model,

But To Be a Good Role Model,
To The World..

My Steps, flawless by movement..

My Apperance,are the only form of experssion..
Who Will Be The Next Top Model?

Day by day,
The Sun Weakly shine..
As The Moon ignores me,
Tranquility awakes me,
I adhere to the mystical shadows..
What If tomorrow ends today,
Will there be an end to suffering,
Or will there be a threat to peace?
These circumstances matters me not,
As I lied weakly on heaven's ground..
Where did it pounder,
Where did it reign,
And as all these tragedies
Starts to Sin,
A New Phenomenon
Begins..

-Thoughts oF The Poet,
Amer HaSsaAN..
7.00AM

Hear me speak,
As I offer my apologies,
For time really flies that fast,
As I flashed back to where I last posted..

Monday,21st Sep
To
Tuesday, 22nd Sep,

Modelling Course..

These two days,
have been the greatest moments of my life..
I thought i had missed my chance forever,
But it was my friends who opened the closed doors,
For me to enter..

It all happened on the night of Friday,
As I was busy commanding the unit,
on an overnight camp,
I received a Message,
From a dearest Friend,
Syak..

And all she had to do..
Was to ask me this 1 questionn
Which would change my life forever..

"Amer,
Are u willing to become a Model?"

And the next thing i knew,
I was with them attending,
the choreography session..

It was at Newton,
And it was a mixture of schools..
There were 2 ite colleges,
And several secondary schools..

Differed in ages,
And cultural backgrounds..
Kinship dosen't exist among us,
But we had the time,
Of our lives..

I learned the basic,
And breaking of the code,
Of a basic and Natural Model to be..

I'm representing my school,
For a design Competition..
Effy and his crew members will be designing,
While Me,Syak,Is,Ayu & Ayn wouldbe Models..

This is the happiest Moment of my life..
It will be a start of my interest..
Perhaps in future,
I would consider becoming a Model..
(If i could,then i would)

Seriously,
I have to thank my friends..
They are the ultimate reason,
I'm achieving my dreams..

Who knows,
After the design competition,
I might pursue my interest?

Only God Knows,
And Only I Can Feel..

Thank u once again..

Somehow,
For these two days,
I feel that i have bonded with Is & Syak..

From the very start,
I already knew that they were people,
with great hearts and mind..
I really feel the chemistry flowing through us..

Hope that Our Friendship would last Forever..

Till Then,
I'll write again..
Full of Emotions..
displayed on a sheet of paper,
This is me..

-Amer HasSaaN

2006-09-18T14:30:00.000+08:00

I May Have Inspired You,
I May Be The One You Idolised,
I May Be Someone You Look Up To,
I May Be Someone You Fantasies..

It Is Not something,
that I have to be,
But It is something,
That I Chose To Be..

I May Fly Without Wings,
And Touch The Sky,

But It's Not Easy,
To Be Me..

-AmeR HassaAN

2006-09-18T14:00:00.000+08:00

If Love is Colourful,
What happens If I'm Colour-blind?

If Love Creates Wonderful Music,
What happens If I'm Can't hear,
a single beat?

If Love is about Saying the Perfect words,
What happens If I'm unable to reply,
the beautiful sentences?

If Love is to witness the Wonders of Life,
What happens If I'm unable to taste,
those seasons?

And If Love is about 2 hearts becoming 1,
What happens If I'm unable to,
To feel?

I write Sins, Not Tragedies..

Life is something unpredictable..
Anything can just happen,
To anyone,
& anytime..

Trust me,
Coz I had seen the seasons of life,
Coz I have heard the sounds of nature,
Coz I have tasted the beauty of friendship,
And I have heard,
The Stories of Love..

Life is just like the Earth's Revolving 24/7..
Life never stops,
It moves unconditionally,
And at some points,
It brings happiness,
While at times,
It brings the otherwise..

Yesterday,
16 Sept,2006
Saturday..
A day to reckon with..

1st Stop,
It was Is' performance,
At golden landmark..
D.C Crew was giving the beat,
and the audience,
Every single attention,
that they could ever pay..

And it was 2 thumbs up..
I really admire Is,
For his dancing abilities..

2nd stop,
Ayn Besties' Chalet..
The location was situated,
At the eastern part of Singapore..
At Changi I would say..

Far by distance,
But Friendship,
was always near to my heart..
I would go the furthest distance,
For a friend..

And the moment we reached there,
Ayn gave us a very very warm welcome..
That makes me comfortable..

She led the way,
The chalets there,
were huge and gigantic..
Never seen so big before..
It was bigger than our previous one..

And not only the chalets were huge,
Her family too!
Oh my,
Her family had the size,
Of one Army Company..
I'd swear it's big..

And upon reaching there,
Ayn introduced us to her family members,
And what's fishy was that,
Her brother-in-law was like looking for me..
And I was like.."Alryte.."
haha..

Met her Mum,
Sisters,
GOd the 2nd one was cute,
Bad thing she is married..
If not,
I would seek my way to her..
haha..

I dun feel comfort,
in the midst of the environment..
I felt that all eyes were looking at me,
as though Like i'm one of them..

well,
I know that Ayn do tell her family bout me,
And perhaps even her feelings..
But I do hope she doesn't tell them I like her too,
Coz I simply prefer to stop as Besties..

The food was nyce,
And everything was nyce..

But I didn't ate much..
Only a plate of fried rice,
And a few mililitres,
of orange juice..

My mind was there,
But My heart wasn't..

What Effy said was true,
Outings always turned sour..
Some cried,
Some fought,
But it was meant to happen,
The only thing i regretted,
was not stopping it..

I'm a failure..
I'm useless..

I couldn't prevent bad stuff from happening..
Maybe I'm trying too hard,
To make the world a better place..

Wani officially became my God-sis,
I couldn't resist calling older girls,
"Kakak.."
I hope Wani could adapt to it..

Sigh,
I'm finally glad,
I was honest to her,
Bout her contributions,
Her care and everything,
she has done to me..
I put aside the gentle men part of me,
And turned to the dark side..
Coz if i don't,
when will the pain ever stop?

But somehow I blame myself,
For what had happened..
Maybe If i didn't exist,
Would have things became better?
I'm 100% sure it will..

Imagine a life,
Without Amer Hassaan..
I'm sure it would be better..

Somehow,
Hafiz and Wani's relationship,
Reminded me of my past..
Hafiz was me,
And Wani was her..

What Hafiz went through,
Was simply wad I did..
The pain,
The agony,
And the freedom,
That was never there,
all of it was similar..

But this time,
I won't allow another failure to happen..
I'm gonna guide Hafiz,
I'm gonna save him..

From any circumstances..
From any danger..

Coz bro,
I have been there..
I know how it feels..

And it hurts..

Somehow,
Life is like a rolling dice..
Everytime u'd throw,
a different number will appear..
It will never be the same..

So is life..
It is unpredictable..

Right now,
I don't even know why Im posting,
My fingers seemed to be the one controlling me.

I don't understand life,
And the Seven Deadly Sins..

Why can't there be peace?
And Love?

Why must there be pain?
Perhaps that is what I'm born,
to taste..

*Is there a Miracle to my life?

Naqiah

2006-09-14T15:00:00.000+08:00

The Melody of My Heart
(Poem is Copyrighted)

Time flies in an instant..
And at times we didn't realise,
That the breathes we'd take,
Eventually ends the day,
In an instant..

Blood gushing,
My heart pumping,
My ears buzzing,
And my eyes were blinded..
But at the end of the day,
I sat to myself,
And I couldn't find a reason why..

You are everything to me,
And everything I'd ever dream of..
You may appear so sudden,
or even at the wrong time,
But at the end of the day,
I sat to myself,
And I hope there was a reason why..

The times I'd glanced at you,
Were golden recollections of my life,
It can be rewinded,
But it could never be replayed..
And at the end of the day,
I sat to myself,
I knew that the moments were priceless,
And there was always a reason why..

There's something about you,
That I can't quite figure out..
Everything you'd do is beautiful,
And everything you'd touch,
Would bring wonders to the world..
When you fell,
I offered you my hands,
But when I fell,
You offered me,in open arms!
And at the end of the day,
I sat to myself,
She is Istimewa & and no money can buy,
And I knew, there was a reason why..

I didn't know her that much,
Nor do I know everything about her,
But whenever she appears,
I felt as though I've knew her for years..

People say that I don't look like her,
But why, does she look like me?

The wind will never blow,
The moon will never glow,
It was so moody, as I sat by my window..
It may rain, and even be so cloudy,
But whenever she appears,
The sun will emerge from the rain!
It kills away all my pain..

People say that I don't look like her,
But why does the weather mentions her name?

I remembered at once,
I was helpless,and lost..
I couldn't play my game well,
My skills were gone, My mind was empty..
I thought it was the end of the world,
But whenever she appears,
She even helped me find my way back,
To the man I am today!

People say that I don't look like her
But why does she fight the world for me?

A hundred miles may seperate us,
Through stations and stops,
We have to wait..
A hundred stops I would go,
A thousand steps I would take,
Coz distance will never keep us apart,
Instead,it brings me closer to her heart..

People say that I don't look like her,
But why does my heart mentions her name?

*She may just be someone,
But she always have a place in my heart..

Distance might seperate us,
But she was always near to my heart..

We may not be together,
But my heart paints her name everywhere..

We might be passerbys,
But you made a big impact on my life..
For you made my heart beat faster,
And slower,at the same time..

Just Who Is She?

You would be leaving for Bangkok,
And I hope,
You'd take good care of yourself..

-Ameer Hassaan

2006-09-14T03:45:00.000+08:00

The Face In The Mirror..

Whenever I woke up,
I'll stretch out my arms..
And from there my hands,
these 5 little fingers,
will search the bed area..

Feeling,
Touching,
Looking for a soft yet warm touch,
And there I will find,
The softest hand God ever made,
The warmest touch,I'd ever feel..

Just whose hand am I touching?

Whenever I may feel sad,
She'll stretch out her fingers,
sail down to my heart,
Her love for me will always flow..
Her smiles will never fail to glow,
And my love for her will always grow..

Touching,
Feeling,
And looking,
For a Care that's so Fine,
And the Ties,
That will always bind..

Just whose warmth am I receiving?

Whenever I'd feel alone,
She'll stretch out my fingers,
And her words she'd always said..
"Whenever u'd feel alone,
Just stretch out your fingers,
And look at this empty spaces..
Look carefully,And feel with your heart..
For my fingers were always there,
I'm always here by u, i am never,
apart..

Touching,
Feeling,
And Looking,
For a Company,
That's always here..

Just whose Love lies,in the spaces,
of my fingers?

For once,
For a moment,
I felt happy..
I felt convinced..
That this is the moment..
This is the time..

After all these years,
SHe is the one I have been looking for..
SHe is the one,
Whose prophecy lies,
To spend an eternity,
with me..

For once,
I had this feeling,
For once,
I felt it..
And For once,
I was never afraid to Love..

I was never afraid to love,
I never turned my back on it,
I never walked away from it..

For she has come to take me away..
From the trouble that in my life..
I don't know what else to say..
But i know,
This time,
I am serious..

I know I'm in Love,
When i see the world inher eyes,
And her eyes,
everywhere in the world..
I know she's the one for me..

For once,
I never regretted..
For once..
I am happy..

She offered me her hand,
ANd I was about to leave this world with her,
When suddenly..

A beam of light surronded us..
I realised i was no longer holding her hand..
She was letting go..
She was..

And with tears I tried to fight back..
but i carn..
coz the love is too strong..
Then,
I heard she said..

"Someday..
We'll meet again..
I promise.."

Then,
I woke up..
I realised that it was a dream..
I put my head back on my pillow,
I tried to force myself to sleep..
But simply,
I can't..
I can't..

It was just a dream..

And the worst part was..

I couldn't even say the 3 words..

It was all a dream..

WHy can't I fall in Love with the girl I dream of?
Why do i always end up with souls who loved me,
And not,I loved them?

Is this my curse?

But the dream,
it was so perfect..
I met the girl of my dreams..

She was,
no words could say..

She was everything..

Although it was a dream..
The feeling is still here..

Maybe her reason,
to appear in my dreams,
Is to give me confidence..

And now,
I'm not afraid to love anymore..
I'll open my heart and my door..

Thanks to her..

Although she is a dream,
But i still feel she is with me..

My dream girl, My dream girl,
I'd love you..
I'd love you,
Very very much..

Everytime i'd close my eyes,
all that i see is you..
And whenever i'd open my eyes,
I miss to see you..

And although you're not here with me,
I feel as though you are..

My eyes will only seek to find your love..
Call it crazy,
Call it insane,
But everytime my heart beats,
It mentions your name..

A lot of people have they loved,
But my love for you,
Is different,
Coz it has never owned you..

I will love you.
Till my last breath on earth..

And i will continue loving you,
even after that..

That's where you'll be..

-Ameer Hassaan

Is 17th Birthday

2006-09-13T13:40:00.000+08:00

A Tribute,
To a Very Special Person,
Who made a Groovy Movement,
To everyone's life..

Happy 17th Birthday,
To:
Is Hairulnizam Bin Sulaiman

A Very Determine,
Confident,
& Carefree Person..

I wish you all the best in life,
And i hope,
That someday u would consider me,
As your life partner..
Opps! I mean,
Hope u'll find the one..

Below Is the pictures,
of Is..
This Post is dedicated to you..

So Fasten your Heart-Belt,
&
Enjoyz..

The Beginning

First day of skool,
I dun recall when or what,
I was feeling lost in anew skool,
But my doubts & fears ended..

Upon all the handshakes,
HE was the one of the first,
"Hi, my name is IS.."
I was like.."Okie! my name is Ameer.."

He has a weird name,
But when i saw his full name,
It was cool, "Is Hairulnizam"
The name,of a rising star..

His voice is like abang2..
And i really respect him..

We were sworn enemies,
I from Unity,
He from Regent,
But we put our past aside,
ANd carried on our new life..

Our school were enemies,
But why arn't we?

The Wonder-Boy

I thought he was like other malay guys,
Plays soccer, a rough and tough man..

But when we all wanted to play soccer,
Everyone was there,even effy,
But not Is Hairulnizam..

He doesn't play soccer!
Haha..
But I dun mind..

Coz Later on,
I found out his talent,
A Talent which is hard for a guy,
To have..

And that Talent,
IS the ability,

To dance..

A lot of friends you'd have,
But how often,
Is he called Is Hairulnizam?

Underneath Is Hairulnizam

He is so hyperactive!
I mean,look at his picture!

Where can u get such a friend,
Who goes anywhere,
Carries an item or two,
Places them on himself,
And says "Cheese!"?

And then I knew,
That he is unique,
ANd special..

He does things that rarely,
My old frenz will do..

His smiles,
Laughters,
And Jokes,

Lighted up the room,
Even part of my Lungs!
I mean,
My heart..

Where can u find a friend like him?

The Man He Is..

He is sporty,
Creative,
Fashionable,
But yet he is not Materialistic..

That seperates him,
And makes him special..

Sometimes,
I wish i could be like Is Hairulnizam,
Dance like him,
Sway my every movements..
My steps is the beat of the music..

And at the end of it all,
I feel appreciated,
For my talent,
Moulds me into the person,

I am inside..

Where can find such person,
With such talent,
As a friend?

ANd there's something about you now..
That I can't quite figure out..

Everything he does, Is beautiful..

And I'd even try to pose like him,
But i can't,
Coz deep inside,
I do know,

That there could only be one,
Is Hairulnizam..

And I'm glad,
To be a part of his lyfe,

A Friend,
A Brother..

Thank you Is Hairulnizam,
For everything..

A Quote For Is,
"Never Judge a Book By It's Cover,
Judge It,
By Reading and Understanding,
It's inside..
For a Cover,Is just a display..
ANd The Chapters,
Hold Special Things,
That are meant to be revealed.."

To Is Hairulnizam..

-Ameer Hassaan

2006-09-13T03:30:00.000+08:00

My Reasons, In an Instance

Why Do I Never Spoke of Love?

True Love,
I've yet To Feel..

Have you ever felt the warmth of love?
Have you ever seen the beauty of love?
Have you ever heard the melody of love?
Have you ever tasted the sweetness of love?

Me?

I've yet to see,
Yet to feel..

But I'll always wait..
Until i become a better man,
Before I'll find my first True Love..

Why Do I Always Turn My Back On Love?

The Fear of Lost,
Leads to the path of Home..
The Fear of Hatred,
Leads to the path of Love..

The Fear of Breaking-up,
Leads to the path of Uncertainty,
The Fear of Patching-up,
Leads to the path of the Past..

And the Fear of Her,
Leads to the path,
Of Your Only One..

Why Do I Always Walk Away From Love?

A thousand miles have i walked,
A thousand lives have i met,
A thousand different stories,
A thousand different tales..

A thousand bridges have i crossed,
A thousand ladders have i climbed,
A thousand faces i have seen,
A thousand places,
I have been..

A thousand times words were told,
A thousand times, love could be sold..
A thousand times I've been love,
But a thousand times,
I'd feel alone..

A thousand lifetime I would be borned,
A thousand hearts I would search,
A thousand Faces I have seen,

But only 1 Face,
I've yet to see..

Why Do I Rather Be Alone?

Whenever it rains,
It reminds me of you..

A hundred miles may seem so far,
But I would still walk out of my door,
And kiss the rain,
Just For you..

That never fails me..
The rain will always come..
And I will always Love you..

So if one day,
You'd hear a storm on the horizon,
Do not be frighten,do not fear..

Coz it's juz heaven,
Doing me a favour,
Of bringing my kiss to you..

Kiss the rain,
Whenver you may need me..

Someday,
Somehow,
My Future Only One,

-Ameer Hassaan

2006-09-10T14:45:00.000+08:00

My Greatest Regret..

Have you ever did something,
That results in taking something away?
When that something,
Is something special,
which comes once in a life,
and u may never know,
when it's going to come back again..

It's like waiting for Hailie's Comet..
It's a shooting star,
That crosses the skies of earth..
The beauty,is unimaginable..
No Ms Universe could ever shine,
as bright as it..

And that comet,
Happens to visit us,
only on one occasion..
If u miss it,
U will have to wait,
for years,or even decades,
for it to cross again..

Some people would die to watch it,
while others would miss it,
coz they simply say,
it will always come again next tym..

The comet,
will always come..
But when the time does,
will we,
still be there?

The story of my comet,
is related to my story..

On one shiny,
and blessed day..
I recieved a phone call..
It was a very rare call..
From a location in Tampines..

Upon answering,
a voice was heard,
it's sound resembles my aunt,
and she asked me..
"are u free tomorrow?"
and i said..
"no..I have to attend,
to my Ncc Training,
Sorry Aunt ;)"

we chat for a while,
and then i put the phone down..

It was so rare,
that my aunt would call me,
and it was kinda weird,
but It's fyne to me..
at least my aunt is healthy.

until that night,
i found out the truth..

when my mummy asked,
why didn't i go,
for the photoshoot..

and i was like,
what photoshoot?

and my mum said something,
that i will always regret in my life..

yr aunt called,
coz she works for Mendaki,
and she called u personally,
coz she thinks that u have what it takes,
in becoming the poster boy,
for the new Mendaki Scheme..

By rejecting her offer..
u're closing doors,
in becoming a Model..
A face,in the media,
of Singapore..

And i was shocked..
my teeth felt like dropping..
My heart wanted to stop pumping..

But i accepted it sadly..
For i called the shots..
It was my mistake..

I could have realised my dreams..
I could have shined from there..

But by a simple word called "no"
My destiny,
turned it's back on me..

When my aunt told my mum,
they found a guy for the job,
My aunt showed my mum,
who the guy is,
and they bet,
that I should have been the poster boy..
God i was dumb..

Now,
wherever i may go,
I saw the posters of Mendaki,
I saw another guy..

Imagine it was me..
No..
I wish,
It was me..

I wished..

*
Friendship,
is the foundation of love..

By friendship,
Our world will open up,
The stars will shine at us,
and Hope will always be there..
Love,

is created by friendship,
and so,
without friendship,
do u think love can ever exist?

would u just love a person,
without knowing him/her?

without aproper foundation,
a building will fall..
that applies to friendship..

If love walks away from u,
who will wipe yr tears away?

To my fren,
The blog-hopper

-Ameer Hassaan

2006-09-10T14:25:00.000+08:00

My GuitaR

Made by a wood,
Attached with 6 simple strings,
These are the sounds & melodies,
That rings music into my ears..

It's from a family string,
Violin,Viola,Bass & the Cello,
No matter how big,or small their size were,
It always rings music into my ears..

The first moment i touched it,
I knew I was destined to be with it..
Singing notes of Do Re Mi, and Tra La La,
I painted it white,and Named my guitar,
"Delilah.."

My Tears,My fears,were all shared with it..
My ideas,my talent,were borned from it..

Coz of it,
I became the Musician,
I am Today..

I smile,and laugh with her..

Even bring her to the beach,and sang to her..

Datz where i'll be,
With my guitar..
Here In my heart,
There'll always be,
"Delilah.."

-Ameer Hassaan

Smiles

2006-09-09T14:10:00.000+08:00

Ameer Hassaan Yazid,

Has Never Smiled That Much,

Until..

Today...

A Smile brings wonders,
Yet Miracles,
So don't stop smiling,
COz A Smile,
Is The purest Form of Expression..
So Smilez Always..

-Ameer Hassaan

2006-09-09T14:00:00.000+08:00

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Today,
8th Septemeber,2006
Is probably,
one of the most happiest days,
of my life..

Crazy isn't it,
how simple,
a sport called Tennis,
would change my day forever..

And it is not only about Tennis,
But it's the amazing power,
of a word,
which makes my whole life,
turn upside-down..
haha..

That word,
is called..
"Friendship.."

Today,
P.O.G,
(Party Orang Giler)
Came up together,
to come to my place,
to play tennis..

And here are the names of the Angels,
who came,
and made a difference in my life..

:.Is Hairulnizam
:.Mohd Hafiz
:.Hafiz Jabbar
:.Doctor Effendy
:.Linda
:.Firaj Khan
:.Iqah :-)
:.Abang Aizat
:.Ayn
:.Fana-Ni :-)

These people came not only,
with their mind,
But with their body and soul..
They brought beautiful things,
Like Fun,Joy & Laughter..
Into my life..

And after Tennis,
My Mummy as usual,
will feed my frenz with food..

The Survivors left,
were Jab,
Fiz,
Fee,
Iqah,
& Dany..

We tried our best to finish up,
the Mee Goreng..
We joked and laughed,
here and there..

Then we swam..
We kept hiding away from the security guard..
I was Do,
Fiz was Re,
Fee was Mi..
Together,
We were Do Re Mi..

hahaz..
Funny isin't it..

Then we were told to leave the pool,
coz the gurls were wearing tshirts,
and guys were wearing shorts..
I mean..
Then what am i suppose to wear ryte?
Bikini?
u gotta be kidding me..
Go Figure.

It was too cold..
So i introduced my frenz,
to the "Sauna"..
haha..
we all tasted the hot and sizzling water..
we relaxed,and made so much noise..

p.s did u noe that Sauna helps to burn fats?
Thanks Professor Syak.. ;-)

After that,
we were singing in the rain..
haha..
it was a lovely sight..
by the pool,
and raindrops were falling from the stars!

it was a magnificent view..
then we all decided to pack-up,
coz it was getting late..

Fee,Fiz and me were inside the house,
half-naked..when my dad came home..
and Fee was like..
"oh my.."

after bathing,
the gurls came up,
and we all sat in my small and comfy room..
we chat about our lives..
and Nana was there..
And she was loved by my fwenz..
datz my sister!

I always had the feeling of lonliness..
Waking and sleeping alone..
My sisters had company,
while i just sat in darkness..
Mesmerising their laughters & joy..

And i'm glad Syak was with me..
she also felt the lonliness..
her brother is in camp..
and all day long she is alone..

I feel for u, Syak..
Thanks,
Now i'm not alone..

Then before they left,
my mummy cooked Chicken Rice for them..
I hope my mum didn't over-fed u guys..
She loves to cook,
and she never allows people to go home,
on an emoty stomach..

And guess wart..
Effy met his future..
haha..
My uncle came..
his name was also Effendi..
Like effy,
he draws well..
They share the same interests..

And the funny part was,
when my dad sat with my uncle to watch tv..
I was like asking effy,
Will this be us in future?
haha..
and effy was like "No!"
coz My uncle had a belly..
and effy wanted to be fit..

And so,
i walked them off to Yew Tee Mrt,
And when they left,
I felt sad,
coz my fwenz are going home..

But i'm glad,
that at least once in my life,
after all the bad chapters in mylife..
The pain has gone away..
Thanks to my friends..
Thank u so so much..

I have never had a brother,
but at least,
my fwenz replaced him..
With love,and warmth..
Thank you guys..

And Is,
Next tym u come,
I'll cook something special for you..
Something westrn?
Like Durian Goreng?
haha..juz kidding..
Dun forget to invite me for Jemputan!

Yesterday,
i heard hanani's problem..
Im glad to have understood her problems..
And this is my advise,
The future belongs to those,
Who ignites the strength,
And The believe,
for a better tomorrow..
U can do it..
I always know u can..
Be strong gurl..

U know..
Lately,
there is this tagger in my blog..
of all the names,
Her's is Saloma..
old skool ryte?
But i like..
coz it's classy & she has her identity..
My oh my..
She's very sweet,
Her blog is almost like mine..
Somehow ther's chemistry goingon..
I heard a whisper in the wind..
What is it trying to tell?

Well..
That's all i have for now..

Just remember,
u can have everything,
wealth,
intelligence,
Career,
luck,
love..
and so on..

But without frendship,
where can u go?
When love starts to leave u,
who is the one,
who wipes all your tears away?

Remember that my frenz..

2006-09-07T14:30:00.000+08:00

"Goal,Goal Goal Goal!"

Ladies & Gentlemen,
Boys & Girls,
Aunties & Uncles,
Baby & Smaller Baby,
Cats & Dogs,

On the 5th of September,
9 group of fine boys,
came together,
to play a game,
where balls will be kicked,
touched,throwed,passed & shoot..

These fine boys came together,
and made a team..
To join a Tournament,
of Soccer Futsal..

And what makes this team special,
is not the skills they possessed,
or the gorgeous look they express..

But it is their different backgrounds,
And bravery,
And passion,
That makes them not ordinary..
But with an Ex in front..
Ex + Ordinary= Extraordinary!

And these men were just teenage dirtbags,
who played soccer during lunch times,
who dribbled,juggled and shoot balls..

And trust me..
They love balls and touch them so much..
And even though it may seem a normal thing,
these men decided to bring it on,
and challenge themselves,
to their limits..

We,
represented Our School,Clementi..
And took part in hell,
A deadly contest..
Where there were Mat Reps,
Mats To Be,Mats Wannabe,
And Mat..
Entah?

And so..
We braced ourselves,
With 1% of hope,
A Droplet of Courage,
An ounce of Confidence,
And an unperishing Faith,
We Defied Gravity,
and Showed what we were made off..

Though we were beaten,
We lost,
We still beat them,
and showed them,
Who we are,
and where we come from..
It is the day,
we will make them..

"Remember The P.O.G"
Feat Koh Wee & Said..

It's my honour to play balls with this people..
And now i shall welcome,
Put your hands together,

For The

"League, of Extraordinary Gentlemen"

These are the Heroes..
Koh Wee,
Said..

The B & B,Bravest and the Best Goalkeeper..My abang Hafiz!

The striker whom i salute,and the beginner that made an impact..
Yazid & Effendi..
The Striker that scored for us,and the man,who kick their balls..
Eric The Cole,and Sir Aizat..

The Captain and The Vice-CAptain,
The Man who brought darkness,
And the boy that brought some candles,
Hafiz Jabbar & Ameer Hassaan..

I am very honoured to play in this team..

Thanks Hafiz Bro,
For your excellent play of Bravery,

Thanks Hafiz Jab,
For your leadership & coordination,

Thanks Sir Aizat,
For not smoking..haha..jk..
For your Roughness & Stamina,

Thanks Eric 'O' Buddy 'O' Pal,
For the goals and hope..

Thanks Yazid,
For your wonderful goal..
ANd btw,there is a girl who supported u,
Shouted yr name,and is crazy bout u..
Yeah..u should start to like her..
Dat girl is me!

Thanks Effy,
The man who sold the world,
The man who didn't run away,
The man,The man & The man..
Datz u!

Thanks Koh Wee,
FOr the wonderful defence,
For your commitment,
U're the man!

Thanks Said,
For being the Libero,
And you jokes,
FOr the subetex thing..
u can be the Joker..
haha..thanks man!

Thanks Ameer Hassaan!
Wad the heck?

haha..

REmeber this,
That in life,
There's lots of challenges,

People always say that they can do it,
But they have never done it..

So my advise to you..
Bring it On!
JUst Do it..

Coz,

Impossible, Is Nothing..

2006-09-03T14:00:00.000+08:00

If I Lay Here,

If I Just Lay Here..

Would You Lay With Me?

And Just Forget The World?
-Snow Patrol, Chasing Cars

If I lay here,
Would lay with me?
And just forget the world?

Present Day/Date:
Saturday,
2nd November 2006

Plans For The Day:
:.Play Pool,
:.Chill Out,
:.Complete The 2nd Verse,
Of The Lonliness..

Saturday,
A day which I favoured,
A day which brings calmness to my mind..
A day which i thought,
Would be the best among the week..

But somehow & somewhat,
Deep beneath me,
I still couldn't find,
The definiton of the real me..

A Problem which Grew In me,
A Story,
Which I will share..
To you..

Someone,
Confessed,
and explained her feelings to me..
And that someone,
Is a person,whom I do cherish,a lot..
Her smiles paint colours to life,
Make the birds cheer and sing,
with melody..
The tigers won't eat for a moment,
Even butterflies would be near her..

That explains, her character..
A trully blessed soul,
With a bright future,
Comes with a path,
Waiting for her arrival..

Somehow,
I know,
Deep inside,
She deserve much better..

Coz I'm my own best fren,
I know myself well,
From the very first day I cried,
To this very day I'm typing my words,
On the keyboard..

I know myself well,
I know my own smell..

And by knwing myself,
I do know,
That u deserve much better..

You're a great & lively soul..
With your kind gesture,
You will attract others,
Someday & SOmehow,
And if God's willing,
You will find the one..

But sadly,
I have to say,
That I,

Ameer Hassaan,
Isn't the one for you..

I know it hurts everytime,
When i say that,
ANd you said it's unfair of me,
To make it this way..

But I do hope you bear in mind,
That u will understand my story too..
It's not that I don't wanna give it a chance,
It's not that I'm afraid to love,
But..

Somehow,
My heart beats alone..

It has yet to find the one..
And i know this might sound hurtful,
But I have to be honest,
From making you wait,
For something,
Which will never happen..

Coz they always said,
If your love does not work out,
With that someone,
It means that someone else,
Loves you even more..

And they always said,
That we can never beg,
Someone to stay,
When they want to leave,
Or be,
With Someone else..

Coz we have to admit..
That love gives us no license,
To own dat particular someone..

And that is what Love really means..

"To Sacrifice.."

I know yr feelings for me has gotten deeper,
Day by day..

But I have to be honest with you..
I carn love you..
No I carn..

My heart will tell me,
When the one is there..

And i know she's the one,
Coz whenever she's there,
SHe will make my heart,
Beat Faster, and slower at the same time..

You're my one true Friend..
I hope you will understand..

I will always be here if you need me..

Just rmb..
That Love,
Can never be Forced..

It is carefree..
Patient and kind..

To Someone..
May You Be Happy,
Always..

Time and time again,
Many have approached,
With open arms,
Confessing their love for me..

But Everytime they do,
I sadly disappoint them..
Not coz I carn commit,
But becoz I know,
That they're not the one,
FOr me..

To Be My Friend,
Is Tough Enough,

And To Be My One & Only,
She has to be Supernumerary,
In malay in meant Istimewa,
To go through the obstacles,
Just to be with me..

ANd I won't rush to find her,
Coz i know that Someday,
God will cherish me,
With the one..

It's a matter of time..
And i'll be patient,
And I will wait..

It hurts me,
When I carn offer my heart,
To those whom offered me theirs..

I'm a failure..
I didn't make a difference..
I failed my principles..

It breaks my heart,
When others break theirs..

ANd the worse thing,
Is that,

I couldn't do anyting,
To save them..

*Always Remember,
Never Mistaken,
My Sincerity,
For Something More..
Coz What I do,
Is based On the Principles,
ANd definition of a Friend..
Go any further,
And you'll not only hurt yourself,
But you will break your own heart..

Am I doing the right thing?

2006-09-02T09:00:00.000+08:00

Spiderman

Gift:
Powers & abilities,
of an advanced Spider

Curse:
His enemies,
and Family,
as a Targeted Prey..

His Quote
With Great Power,
Comes Great Responsibility..

Batman

Gift:
Intelligence,
Strength,
Desire To Save Gotham City

Curse:
The Death,
Of His Beloved Parents..

His Quote:
It's Not Who I Am Underneath,
But It's What I'd do,
That Defines Me..

Superman

Gift:
Supernatural Powers,
Lightning Speed,
Strength,
Everything

Curse:
Kryptonite,
The Last Son Of Krypton

His Quote:
I'm more than a Man,
In this silly red sheet,
But It's Not Easy,
Being Me..

Every Gift,
Comes A Curse..

So what's your story?

2006-09-01T16:00:00.000+08:00

The Giants Have Fallen

Present Day:
31st August 2006

Highlights of the Day:
Xero Axis Performance,
Live,
One Day Only,
Unity Secondary School

It was a cool & windy day..
The calm and soothing wind,
Eased my mind,
Wherever I may go..

As I walked further & further,
The wind was there,
Guiding me all along..
I felt guidance, stood confidence..

And I made my way to meet Eric,
under his block..
I planned to help him carry some stuff,
And God trust me,
The amp was so so heavy..

Eventhough I work out,
This amp really tested my strength..
But i managed to persevere..
And carried it to skool..
(and it was raining heavilly alryte..)

Reached skool,
Met up with the band..
Along the way I saw some teachers,
some familiar, some unknown..
And saw some Junior faces too..

Upon reaching the hall..
We set up our equipments..
Everyone had their stuff..
And ready to rumble..

we were the 9th Performance..
It was amost the end,
But they always said,
"save the best for the last"

Some other bands were there too..
They performed chinese songs..
And 1 band which i favoured was,
A band which had,
the Unity Idol in it..
It's like a replica of Kelly Clarkson!

And the came ours,
It was a moment of truth,
And justification..
It was wad we all were waiting for,
It's been long,
Since the audience heard Xero Axis.

And then we played..
"Last Train Home"

Chua- Drummer
Eric- Vocalist
Sharils- Guitarists
Ameer Hassaan- Basissts

It was the first tym,
I didn't had a mic,
It front of me..
It felt so different,
And wrong..

And then,
things started to go haywire..
Shahril's amp was not working..
Bah sang off the rhythm..
Eric had problems with pitching..

Overall,
Our frenz said it was fyne..
Teachers said,
"It's okie"

But we had a comment from an audience,
Bah's cousin..
And he told a very honest mistake..
"Xero Axis wasn't good..
Both the sound,almost all..
Couldn't hear anything.."

That made us all down..
We were disapointed..
Sad..
Heartbroken..

Bah was so so sad..
He knew he could do better..
Shahril was sad,I know..
But he kept it inside..

Eric bro,
felt the worst impact..
He shared his fears with me..
And as a Vocalist,
I understood..

A lot of my fwenz msged me,
about the performance..
I looked at thier comments,
it was so hurtful,
that i switched off my hp..

Then,
Eric honestly told me,

"Ameer,u should have sang..
I'm meant to hold the bass..
U should be the vocalist.."

I was silent for a moment..
was wad he said true?
I played the bass,
coz i lost the confidence to sing..
But my mistake,
let to the failure of my band..

If only Ameer hassaan sang,
Things will be better,
Just like the old times..

Then had soccer match,
48 v.s 4xpress
A reunion match..
Score was 7-6
and i scored 1..
This will be my final match..

I played,
wearing my long sleeve england jersey,
white shorts, red socks,
and red and white boots..
My hair was mohawk..

And they said,
that i really look like an english player..
I looked like,
David Beckham..

And when i scored,
it was nyce, it curled,
And i rmbered wad Beckham does,
when he scored,
so i did it,
1 last time,
pulling off my jersey..
And whenever i scored,
i will always look 4 shahril,
and i will run to him,
and hug him,
just like the old times..

I felt disappointed..
I failed my duty as a Vocalist..
I should have sang..
So i learnt 1 lesson..

A Vocalist is meant to be,
with a mic,on a stand..
He may play other instruments,
but never abandon his mic,
for if he does,
he will bring down,
everything..

That's all for today..

I don't why,
i kept having nytemares..
about you,
every night,these few days,
i will dream about you..

And in my dream,
u always,almost, died,
and i'm thankful,
that i'm always the one,
to pull you through..

What is the dream trying to tell?
Are u going away?
Or me?

Pls dun go away,
Dun fade jus like how u did in my dreams..
Coz in my dreams,
When u're almost gone,
I felt like dying..

I cannot bear this feeling,
So i'll try my best,
To prevent that from happening..

In my dreams It shatters,
In reality It differs..

*To The Miracle..

I AM A MAN!

2006-08-31T06:45:00.000+08:00

2 Quarters & A Heart Down

Tomorrow, 31st August 2006,
Is the moment,
Whereby,
One of the greatest Band of all,
will once again rule the stage,
Just like we always had,
And sing the songs to our audiences,
Who missed the Music we Make..

"Mess With The Best,
Die Like The Rest.."

Courtesy
-Ameer Axis
VocaList of Xero Axis..

Present Day,
30th August 2006

I didn't attend school yesterday,
Coz i felt so so sick,
Yet weak at the same time..
My body could move,
But my soul wouldn't..
And so i didn't go to skool..

Had NaFa Test,
We did our 5 Stations..
And I really flung it,
after 1 year of not doing it..

Below is my results for my achievements..
Sit Up: 53, 5 Points
Chin Up: 3, 1 Point
Standing Broad Jump: 222cm, 3 Points
Shuttle Run: 9.2 s, 5 Points
2.4: Yet To Settle..

Looking at my results,
Disappoinment fills me..
It sank me real deep,
But it doesn't matter..
I will try, & I will make it..

Lately,
almost everyday,
I've been very restless..
My energy level has reached Point Zero..

I feel so weak..
Sometimes I feel like dying..
Eventhough i slept,
I still feel tired...

Aizat said it's signs,
whereby a person will soon die..
I mean..What in the world?
Oh is it true?

Is Ameer Hassaan,
dying?

That is the thing that fears me,
the most..
Coz i have yet to accomplish,
Some of my responsibilities..
Hope it's not true..

I work out almost everyday..
I'll torture myself,
Beyond the physical limits of Man,
And beat the Manly Endurance,
To achieve the best that I can be..

But the process is tough and mentally,
challenging..
But I have confidence pouring in every sec,
And that will make me go through..

Dad,
He is so the hot-tempered..
Recently,
He is quarreling with Mummy,
And it's not a big one,
But it's like a child's fight,
They are fighting over a Cash Card,

I mean,
It's like Duh..

Sisters are great,
Life is so beautiful when they are around,
Big sis brings home Starbucks leftovers,
3rd sis is getting darker & darker..
Nana is best,to be disturbed...

haha..
I love my family..
We're complete,
And have evrything..

But my greatest regret,
Is not having a brother,
at all..

It's so sad & boring..
Datz why my life is so empty..
I envy all my frens,
They all have brothers..

Imagine this,
I wanna play soccer,
but i play alone..

I wanna share my probs,
But all the ears belong to sisters..
And they give advises based,
on the side of Femaltality..

I wanna talk to Dad,
But he is too stern, strict & fierce..
So have the attitude,
Of A Police Assistant Superintendant..

Oh God..
Today,
I'm telling my sadness..

I am the First & Last Son,
But pls,
If someday I get married,
I wish to have a Son,
Coz i always dreamt,
I had 4 Daughters..

And My life is so..
Feminine..

A lot of people think i'm gay,
oh my..
my frenz..
even my sister thinks so!

My class mates agree,
Even my teacher says,
I'm a pretty Boy!

Nono!

Things should not be this way!
I wanna be a Man!

*It's not something that I Have to be,
But It's something I chose to be.."

-Great Words From The Fallen..

The Lonliness

2006-08-30T05:30:00.000+08:00

The LonLiness..

Even though Light shines on me,
Darknest still surrounds..
Even though life is full of laughter and smiles,
Sadness still captures me..

Even though Music makes my day,
Emptiness still takes the sound away..
Even though Friends start to multiply,
I'm always sinking deeper,
Into An Undefeating Enemy..

Called,
"The LonLiness.."

How does it feel,
to be all alone?
What does it take to feel,
all left alone?

Why is life so empty,
yet so lively?
Why is life so black,
when the say the world is white?

Since childbirth,
I was told by an Astrologist,
That I fought destiny,
To be borned..

Since my childbirth,
I was told by everyone,
That I was special, & gifted,
To have defeated Destiny,
To be borned..

My Birth is a gift,
To everyone,
Being The First Son/Grandson,
Is a Miracle,
That bring life into the hearts of everyone..

They say we have a heart,
But when heart starts to double,
Due to happiness and joy,
They say u now have Two Hearts..

It was my gift to set my foot on the soils of earth,
I had everything,
I thought I was perfect..

I own properties that not other man could have,
Wealth,
Family,
Charm,
Intelligence,
and so on..

I thought that I had it all..
Until One day,
I learnt that,

For Every Gift,Comes A Curse.

And My Curse,
I realised,
That was something i couldn't defeat,
For it lingers and haunts me every moment,
of my life..
And that was,
"Lonliness.."

I woke up in the morning,
alone,
Eventhough the sun shines,
It's light were captured by Darkness..

I slept in the Night,
alone,
Eventhough the moon reflects,
It's shine were deflected,
by the depths of Emptiness..

Life is so empty,
yet so Lonely..

How could i replace this lonliness away?
Could I?
Should I?

Somehow,
SOmeday,
These Lonliness Must go..

Till then,
As I sent my prayers up high,
A cure For Lonliness,
A Miracle,
I'll be waiting..

I was The First SOn,
But Never I realised,
That I too,
Would be the Last..

This Lonliness,
Must Go..

Maisarah's Birthday

2006-08-28T15:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday To You,
Happy Birthday To You,
Happy Birthday To
Maisarah Nabilah..
Happy Birthday To You..

Happy 17th Birthday To You,
May all your wishes come true,
Today,Tomorrow & Forever...
Tomorrow Never Shines,
Without Your Light..

2006-08-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

My Sincerity..

"The Man,
Who has no Imagination,
Has No wings To Fly.."
- Ameer Hassaan

Greetings I wish to my readers,
I hope your life is doing well..
May it be good,
May it be bad,
But always remember,
It comes from up above..
Always ask for guidance,
And Forgiveness..
Before it's too late..

So many days I have not blogged,
So many people,have asked me too..
So many questions, I need an answer,
To solve these doubts in my life..

These few days seem to be,
one of the mysterious part,
of my whole life..

Problems kept arising,
Doubts start to double,
And when too much of these sums up,
It is a heartache every moment..
And it's too heavy for me to carry..

Sometimes I just wish,
That my voice would come alive,
And shout it's volume to the max..

Then i'll know,
at least part of my fears are wiped,
at least part of my tears won't weeped..
at least..
i'll feel better..

Sometimes I just wish,
I could be like the Mat's..
Be Like The Gangsters,
And be just like Aizat..

When there's a problem,
Solve things by violence..
Give a knock on the head,
And teach them a lesson,
by pain..

Sometimes I just wish,
I could be strong like Yazid,
Brave-looking on the outerside,
And strong-hearted in the innerself..

When there's a problem,
Solve things by bravery,
care not what others say,
Give a wake-up call to the face,
And teach them a lesson,
by pain..

Sometimes I just wish,
I could be direct like Effy,
Confidence puring 24/7,
And truth as his guidance..

WHen there's a problem,
Solve them by his words,
Carried by honesty,
and the art of truth,
His words wake them up,
And eventually,
Teach them a lesson..

I wish i could be carefree like Is,
So modest, and lively,
Yet so humble..
He lives upon his own principles,
And dat makes him go on..

Wish i could be just like bro Hafiz,
He is so mature,
Very Patient,
He does not hesitate,
When he has to..
He is the man of the class..
Respect triumphs with him..

I just wish that someday,
I could be just like them..
Coz i'm different..

I'm too soft,
I'm too forgiving..

Maybe that's why,
Others easily mistaken,
My sincerity,
For something more,

SOmething which isn't theirs,
To begin with..

A friend,
Is a special soul to me..
And i will treat my friends equally,
Be it happy or sad..

As long as you are my friend,
I will reach out to you,
ANd help you,
within my capabilities..

But i cannot,
grab the stars for you,
If you ask me to..

Coz i'm no superman..
I'm just a teenager..
I only write songs..

Pls Dun Mistaken,
My Sincerity,
For Something More,
Coz my feelings are limited,
As a friend,

I don't intend,
To Have a partner,
anymore..

2006-08-21T15:10:00.000+08:00

Mimpi Yang Sempurna

These are pictures taken,
during a wonderful night,
Dinner at Delifrance,
Check it out..

Aynnizza & Ameer Hassaan

SugaR! We Are Going Down!

She's thinking of mE..I'm thinking of her..

I didn't knew Aizat was there with us,
until i inverted the pics..

Steward, Stewardess & Pilot Wannabe..
The Fairies of The Night..

The Band of Brothers..A New Kind of Army

More pics uploaded,
when Danish gives me
Her Thumbdrive..

Datz all i have For now,
So long, & Goodnight..

"Mungkinkah..
Bilaku Bertanya,
Pada Bintang-bintang.."

2006-08-21T14:59:00.000+08:00

The Ghost of You

I tossed and turned,
Sideways and underneath,
Left and right,
Though I'm still sleeping,
Deep inside I'm still awake..

Wandering aimlessly,
In the streets within..
My mind shattered,
I dun recall, a single thing..

People all around me,
From different walks of life,
Some were dishonest, while some were ernest,
Welcome to the lifestyles,
of the Rich & Famous..

My mind's lost,
It swirls and twirls,
But somehow, somewhat,
My heart's still beating..

I lay by myself,
I look at life,
What it offers,
And what are we here for..

Sometimes,
Why do we still regret,
Even after making,
The right decision?

These few days,
Has been a whirlpool of questions,
Should i answer it?
No..could i even answer it?

These doubts are so painful,
Yet so beautiful,
at the same time..

Why do i have mixed feeling?
What issit trying to tell this time?

These thoughts I pushed away,
I started running away again..
From the jaws of reality..

After so much of running,
I realised that,
i can run,
But i can't hide..

So i decided to settle down,
To finally listen,
what my heart wants to say..

I tried to listen,
but i couldn't,
No matter how hard i tried..
I cried,

Coz I couldn't hear what the world is saying,
and now,
i carn even hear,
What my heart wants to say..

Then i closed my eyes,
I calmed myself down,
I breathed deeply,
And then victory began to be mine..

I felt that evrything was ready,
for me to listen to my heart,
But before i opened my eyes,
I saw an image of a lady,
lingering around my vision..

she was there,
all along..
And she's still there,
Even how hard i tried not to..

And so i opened my eyes,
I wanted to get out of this imagination,
But when i opened my eyes,
I still see her..

She's not there,
Physically..
But Her spirit is,
And i can feel it,
I swear i could..

My heart yearns to see her,
To meet her,
To be with her..

After all this time,
I finally found what my heart wants..

I slowly stood with confidence,
Looked up high,
To soar for my dreams above..

But then i rmbered,

To Love SOmeone Is Nothing..

And so,
I walked back home..

Feeling down and out..
Would i be able to feel like this again?
Or would this be the last tym?

At The End Of The World,
Or The Last Thing I'd see,
You're Never Coming Home,
Never COming Home..

* Stories were meant,
to be untold..

2006-08-20T10:00:00.000+08:00

TurNing Away From...

Yesterday,
All my trouble seems to fly away..
Now it's no longer here to stay,
And I would always pray,
For the better of Today..

Love..
Is patient and kind..
It is never jealous nor conceited..
It is always beautiful in the eyes of the beholder,
Never holds the feeling of hatred, nor redemption..

Love..
Is an amazing feeling,
A feeling which you can't describe..
A feeling that doesn't come jus that way..
Of all the people you may be with,
Not with all of them,
This feeling will stay..

This special feeling,
will only appear,
in 1 out of a million souls..

And that's what make Love,
Pure & Genuine..

A lot of people you may have loved,
But Does it come with the feeling,
Or are you just saying the words?

All my life..
I came across a lot of people..

Some beautiful,
some Intelligent,
Some young,
And Some old..

These people carries thier own speciality,
their weakness and their strength..
But how do you know when that person,
Is the one?

The one I amy never know..
Throughout my whole life,
I have never felt the true beauty,
of love..

There are those whom I've been with,
But the power of love didn't existed,
And then i knew,
That she wasn't the one..

I fear to love,
What would it be like?
Would it be beautiful,
or would it hurt u so much?

But I always know,
That Someday,
The Girl of my dreams will come to me..

And hopefully,
I will wait..
I will be patient..

And for now,
I'll just remain free..

I've decided that,
Life being alone,
tastes so much better..

Therefore,
I won't be engaging into any relationships,
with anyone..
Until i grow to become a man,
And when I'm ready,

Hopefully God too would,
And cherish my life with,
everlasting love..

A lot of people I may have liked,
But as for love,
I'm keeping it,
For the special one..
years or even decades,
I will wait..

But Not Now..

*I'm closing my door to Love..
I'll never open it,
Until I'm a Man..
No more love for now..
Coz it's all just a dream..
Never a reality..

2006-08-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

Tennis,anyone?

Thursday,
Primary Plan:
Tennis Activity,
And a visit,
To my house..

Secondary Plan:
Have fun,
No..
Have a HELL of fun..

Tennis:
It was a very great day for 1/2 P.O.G
There were,
Eric,
Effendi,
Is,
Aizat,
Hafiz,
Ayn,
& me..

The rest went to Syak's house,
for a Karaoke session or so..
Hope u guys enjoy yr day..
Smilez always..

Then it was my frenz first visit to my house,
And so they met my family members,
There were,
My Mummy,
2nd Sis,
3rd Sis,
and 4th Sis..
Daddy and 1st Sis,weren't there..
I hope my family members welcomed u well..

Then It was moment not to be wasted nor waited,
For most importantly,
Is Hairulnizam..
He loves tennis to the max..
And as a fren,
I hadn't done much for him,
And so today..
I'll make his wish come true..

We all armed with rackets,
holding balls with the other hand,
and some place balls in their pocket..
(wait,that sounds so wrong..)
And started the match..

Overall,
I felt that we had great fun..
Coz when i look at their eyes,
They were having so much fun..
Eventhough we're not used to Tennis,
We still enjoyed it though..
until we made it our own version..

I had a one on one match with Is,
And God,
Is is great..
He plays almost like Sharapova..
(his voice is the most similar..)

He taught me about tennis,
The knowledge,and the rules..
I became much more aware of it,
And Is my buddy,
Thanks a lot..
SO tell me,
Did i play like Roddick?
haha..

yeah..
But after the match,
It was not the end,
My Mummy cooked a special dish Signature,
for them..
It was Nasi Briyani..
Hope it was nyce..
My mother loves to cook,
and feed others..
Hope u guys enjoy your meals..

ANd to Is again,
I'm sorry if you could not eat the food,
But i'm glad you told me,
The food that you normally eat..
Western style is your taste..
NExt time,
I prepare u sumthing like,
Pancake Goreng,
or Toasted rice?
Just kidding..
But if next time u'd come,
It will be different..

So to all my fwenz,
I would like to thank you for coming,
Coz u filled my home life with laughter,
noise,company,and love..

I had never a brother,
older or younger,
And so i think i won't have,
in my whole entire lifetime,
But u all replaced it,
and Thanks once again..
(I hope i will have a son next time..)

I was thinking & thinking..
I couldn't sleep..
ANd so i would like to introduce,
someone to the world..

There's so much about you,
That i like,and love..
You're such a lovely person,
You filled my life with everything..

And if i were to find one word to describe you,
I couldn't,
For even if i found a thousand paged dictionary,
Even a thousand page I'd flipped,
I couldn't find..
And now i know,
That you're Istimewa,
And u cannot,
be defined..

You hold multi-talented qualities,
you can do anything..
you do them sincerely,
without any complains..
And even if you're lazy,
you would be honest,
and wouldn't do things,
half-heartedly..

And tha's what i like,
no,what i adore,
no,what i love,
about you..

Coz you're just everything to me,
you're intelligent,
kind,
loving,
honest,
sincere,
friendly,
joyful,
sociable,
and everything..

People say that I look like Dad,
But why,Do I like you?
Thank you Mummy,
For every single thing,
That you have done for me..

You are,
A Best friend,
A Mother,
A Loving Wife,
And place happiness,
In my life..

Daddy is fated to be with you..
And i'm glad so,
without you,
there will be no me..
and without me,
I wouldn't be living in this world..

Thanks Mummy,
You're My everything,
I wish that i could find,
a partner,
with such qualities like you..

*SOmeday, & Somehow,
I wiLL..

2006-08-18T01:00:00.000+08:00

WheN I Learned To Smile Again..

Smiles,
An everlasting smile,
A smile would tell a thousand stories,
And these few days have been the most,
beautiful,days,of my life..

And with just dat one smile,
It creates a thousand tales..
And now,
I'll share one story,
to all of you..

Everytime I'd close my eyes,
All that I see,
Is you..

And when I'd open my eyes,
My heart yearns,
To Meet you..

Eventhough you're not by my side,
I feel as though you are,
Like I've known you,
FOr all my lifetimes..

My eyes will only seek,
To find your care,
smiles & laughters..

Call it crazy,
Call me insane,
But everytime my heart beats,
It mentions your name..

A lot of people you may have loved,
But my feelings for you is special,
and pure,
Coz it has never own you,
And it sets you free,
wherever you may go..

My mind seems to be,
picturing every image of yours..
They play like a video,
Everytime I close my eyes..

So whenever I'd miss you,
I'll just close my eyes,
And I know u'll be there..

I cannot forget you..
No..
I don't want to forget you..
Coz time can never pass,
without you here by my side..

You may just be a someone,
But u already have a place in my heart..

Distance may seperate us apart,
But you are always near to my heart..

We may just have met,
You know not much bout me,
And i know not much bout you..
But my heart has already,
painted your name everywhere...

I will always have you in my heart,
until my very last breath,
And i will continue having you there,
In my next,and next lifetime..

Thank You,
For Everything..
My Miracle..

2006-08-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

Enemy, of The States..

In life,
You choose 3 directions,
As a guidance of life..

One,
You follow your Mum..
The woman who gave birth to you,
The one who fed you,nurtured you,
And taught you a simple word,
By Care,Softness and Concern,
called "Love.."

Two,
You follow your Dad..
The man who raised you up,
The one who paid for your food,clothings,education,
The man who sold the world,just for you,
And taught you a simple word,
By pain,lessons and lecturing,
called "Love.."

Lastly,
You follow yourself,
The person you are inside,
The person who understands and knows u the best..
The person who is 24/7 with you..
The person who grows,and watches everything with you..
And taught you a simple word,
By Adventures,Explorations & Qualities,
Called "Love.."

For about 13 years of my life,
I followed my dad,
Discipline,roughness and anger is my ally..

I'm easily mad,
openly flared,
easily gave up,
and totally converted,
to the dark side..

Until i met Hanani,
I told myself,
that it's time for a change,
and so i followed my Mum's way..
The softer side in me..

And so i became a positive-thinking person,
I became much more patient,
Caring,Sociable..
And all the good qualities,
that i have never possesed before..

I learnt my lessons after failures,
Especially My O's,
And decided to change,
to be a better man..

And so,
I became a guy,
whose soft-hearted..
who hardly gets mad..
And remains cool,
no matter what the condition is..

But today,
as i walk home alone,
i started thinking,
wheter the decision i made was right..

Coz my frenz told me,
when i'm too soft hearted,
other people started to take advantage on me..

They step over my head,
And started to control my life..

I didn't care much bout it,
Coz i knew what i was doing,
Is sincere..

But as i reflected back,
based upon the events of my life,
Perhaps what they claimed was true..

People asked,
why i didn't have a partner,
or a girlfriend..

Coz i wondered,
if i had one,
would she be able to survive the situation,
that i am in?

would she be accpted by the people i know?
Could she be strong enough to withstand words,
and pressures,that comes out,
from the evil mouths of people?

Would she?
or could she?

Or worst,
would she step over my head,
just like the rest?

Even if she passed the test of my frenZ.
she still has to go through my family..
My 4 sisters,
My Mum,
My Grandmother,
My Dad,
My close relatives,
and all those related to me..

Coz they regard higly of me..
and so will they expect,
of my partner..

Coz even to be Ameer Hassaan's friend,
it's difficult..
Due to jealousy,
my frenz were killed..

So what does it takes,
to even be my partner?

i would rather remain a bachelor,
for a hundred lifetimes,
rather than let her go through all the pain,
suffering and tears..

Coz I dream of my dream girl every night..
But whnever reality wakes me up,
I realised that i was even foolish to think of her..
And so i pushed my dreams away..

*I'm looking for a cure,to Jealousy...
My worst Enemy..

2006-08-12T13:35:00.000+08:00

"Probably The Best Gender That God,
Ever Created,
Is The Female Gender.."
-aMeR haSsAaN

2006-08-12T13:30:00.000+08:00

RisE Of The Dragon

As The waves of Kallang swept away my emotions,
I drifted Nearer to the realms of reality..
And As I rised Beyond the depths of Depression,
For Once,
A Smile Bestowed me,
And Made My Day,
A Trully Blessed Friday..

Today,
Our class had an excursion To Kallang,
Where we,as a class,
Would participate In an event,
called,
"Dragon Boating"..

To Summarise the long and tiring event,
Here are words to replace it..
-Challenging
-Worth-The-Experience
-Develops Camaraderie
-Bonds Get Closer
-A Breath Taking Journey..

From this Dragon Boat,
You Would Learn This Qualities;
-Teamwork
-Coordination

To Hafiz Jaabar & Misha,
Your time will come soon,
And I only Have One advise,
For your heart to listen,
"Have Fun"..

After Dragon Boating,
Class SD,which consists of;
-Sluts Inc
-The Handicapps
-Joyah Club
-& Independant Ayn,
Went to East Coast Park,
To chill and let our emotions out..

Some went to bath In the cool and open sea,
While some sat on the rocky rocks,
And set their emotions free..

To Syak:
I wanna apologise,
If my sad voice,
And emotional songs,
had brought you to tears..
It may have brought you back to memory lane,
But i'm glad u're alryte..
Take care Once Again..
I'm waiting to reveal my answer to you..

Then we went off,
To our own,
and seperate ways..

Ilah and Effy went back to the east,
Yazid,Syak,Is,Fana & Eric,Went back to the West,
And North..

While Me and Ayn,
Took a bus to Ang Mo Kio,
To send her home,
Like i have promised her..

And Now,
I'm gonna introduce,
A Very special person,
To The World..

Mini-Bio
Her Name:
Aynniza
Her First Tears:
30th March 1989
Her Hobbies:
Singing,
Cheerleading,
& Dancing..

Ayn,
A soul that i met,
upon my first day i skool..
we were from different backgrounds,
And different origins,
People say that I don't look like her,
But why,does she look like me?

Ayn,
A soul that soon became known as a friend,
upon our basic similarity,of my fren and her cousin Azmi,
we specialised in different talents,me Music and her Dance,
and we hardly know each other,
People say that I don't look like her,
But why does it seems like i've already known her,
for Lifetimes?

Ayn,
A Friend that soon become a Close Friend,
after differences we finally managed to understand,
The beauty of peace,care and love,
We started appreciated smiles and laughters,
People Say that I don't look like her,
But Why Is there Light when it'z dark,
whenever she appears?

Ayn,
AClose Friend,which eventually Evolves Into A Best Friend,
The First Ever Female Best friend I had in my entire life,
The First female who could understand my character,
and my way of life..
The one whose care can never be defined,
Whose warmth surrounds me when i'm cold,
And whose hands which pulled me up,
When I'm sinking down,and laid undying..
And now I 'll ask,
People say that I don't look like her,
But why does she,
Fights The world for me?

After all these times,
And then I knew,
That u were the one,
My one and only one,
True,
Best Friend..

Aynnizza..
Thanks For your Care & Concern..
My 1st Female Best Friend..
Friendship Lasts Forever..

*This song is dedicated to you..

2006-08-10T15:39:00.000+08:00

The Day You Showed Me,Your True Colours

Thursday,
A Faithful Day,
Where A Simple Action,
Will determine,
The Fate,
And The Destiny of Others..

And so It does,
As soon as I placed my Two Feets,
On the Concrete Floor of The Classroom..
As soon as I entered,
And as I looked,
I knew something,
Something Bad,and Tragic,
Will Happen..
And It did..

Ignited by negative qualities,
A Flame was spread out throughout the area..
Tension,Chaos and Panic,
Seems to be the Qualities that was Possesed,
On this Fatithful Day..

The Tears that Flowed,
The Fears That Growed within,
Has all existed,
But Based on what reasons,
I May Not Know,
And they lived helplessly without directions..

Like a needle in a compass,
These values turned aimlessly,
As Magnetive Forces from everywhere,
Started to attract,
and pull It to their own direction..

These qualities exist,
and surrounds us in our everyday life..
But on what basis,
and what reasons,
should they be here?

Why do they hurt us,
When it was thought to make things better?

Why is there hatred,
When it was meant to love?

On what basis,
I may not know..
But Now I do know,
As I unlock the doors,
and Find explanations,
For these Problems,
From deep within..

I feel utterly sad,
depressed,
with the way of live,
our class has..

But Today I'm glad,
That we all are holding hands,
To make the envoronment,
A better place to live in..

It's nobody's blame to begin with,
Coz this is a Test From God,
And He wants to see,
How we Solve all,
His Questions and Doubts..

Let us Be strong,
And Not To be Beaten again..

Let us Be strong,
And overcome this obstacle,
Once and for all..

Let us Be strong,
And dissolve this hatred we have,
In one another..

Let us Be strong,
And dismiss the bad qualities,
That we posses in our lives..

Let us Be strong,
Let us Wipe away our Tears,
And Shed away these Fears,

And Be strong,
As we pray for a better tomorrow,
And add a Smile,
To our faces..

*I know the story,
I know what Is Happening,
Coz everytime I look into your eyes
I see the truth befallen me..
But I have Never blamed you,
And God forbid I won't,
I'll help you find,
The Light that u have switched off,
And I'll let it shine upon u again..
Because,
Every word I say is True,
This I promise You..

2006-08-10T15:30:00.000+08:00

The Fallen,Has Risen

I stood behind the veil,
unknowing the future,
Not knowing what would happen,
or become of me..

I stood without confidence,
as every ounce of it,
Began to evaporate out,
of my whole entire body..

Too many questions,
I need an answer,
As these questions grow more and more,
I sank deeper into the midst of the echoes..

These past few days,
Seems to be the drastic moments of my life,
When the world has turn it's back on me,
And when the name,
'Ameer Hassaan",
has seemed to Fall..

I began to run away from reality,
As I was beaten badly from fire,
I was placed down on bended knees,
As I weakly accepted,
That I was defeated..
And I realised,
That I wasn't strong enuff..

I placed my white Flag,
And hope it reminds you,
of Your Victory..

But Today,
Things has seemed to change..
When I look back at the past,
Be it happy or sad,
I always accepted it..
Coz time is what,
That makes me the man,
I am today..

So Today,
I'm replacing the white Flag,
With my Flag of War..

Today,
I've come back,

Today,
Is the day,
Ameer Hassaan,
"Ressurects.."

Today,
Is the day,
I'm getting back what I've lost..

Today,
I shall shed away all my Fears,
and wipe away all these Tears,
Coz I'm afraid no more..

*I'm coming back,for you..
Dedicated To,
My AngeL..

2006-08-07T02:07:00.000+08:00

The Day I Fall

Date:
August 6th,2006
Time:
1006 hours

Current Secondary plans:
Cut a Mohawk style
Current Primary plans:
Cure the heartache of people

Days has passed since I last posted,
Time really showed us where we last do,
the things that we always work on..

These past few days,
seems to be the worst nightmare,
of my entire life..

I try not to think much,
I try to resist,
But the power of the force is too strong,
And I lied helplessly,
beneath the depths of depression..

I tried to reach out for a support,
I wanted to leave this whirpool,
before i sink deeper,
before i lose all my energy,
before,
I close my eyes before the world..

Everynight I would sit by my window,
And at that moment,
I would hold my guitar in my arms,
I look at the fret,
It's where i painted her name,
"Delilah"...

"Delilah",
represents a song,
defines a meaning,
It's chords are melodius,
It's rhythm is lovely..
The words that makes the lyrics,
was ignited by passion,
mixed with feelings,
FOr that someone special..

"Hey There Delilah"
The first ever song,
that I'd ever sing for a girl..
It was the only song,
that gives me passion & inspiration,

It was this song,
that developed my vocals,
It was this very same song,
that made me a man,
To face the real music,
The moment,
That I have been waiting for all my life..

And all this for,
A girl..
An Angel..

We were from very different backgrounds,
Different roots of inspirations,
And different places of origin..

There's nothing similar between her and me,
She was smart,but i was smart alek..
She is intelligent,beautiful,
She holds the world in her hands..

The things she'd touched,
would come out alive!
Flowers shine when she passes them,
The rainbow emerges from the drastic rain,
Coz she's an angel,
And heaven is always by her side..

Her words,and her voice,
flows just like the river,
with the wonderful essence of vanilla..
Stars will never fall,for if they do,
she will fly to the sky,
and place them back where they belong..
Coz she's an angel,
And heaven never fails to guide her..

Every guy That sees her,
Was attracted..
Like a group of bees,
chasing after a Heavenly Honey..

Coz she's in the dream we had everynight,
Coz she's the tooth fairy that places a penny,
under our pillows,while we're fast asleep..
Coz she's the Angel,
that guides our way through,
that saves us from the clutches of the Devil,
saving us from the danger,
that is meant for us..

But after we met,
and after the times we've been through,
After all the songs that I have sang to her,
I realised one thing,
she has a place in my heart,
And from that moment onwards,
She is a special fren to me..

We hardly meet up,
hardly talk on the phone,
At times,
We could only chat on the msn,
For distance really plays a part,
but she is always close to my heart..
That never fails me..
I always reminded myself,
of the times we had during clt course..

When i first talked to her,
And she said i had a Sombong look,
And she didn't talk to me,
coz she thought i was a chinese..

I remembered during meal times,
somehow when we fall in,
I would always sit beside her,
And i would always nag and lecture,
to finish up her food..
And she would smile,
shaking her head,
and throw all the food away..
I was sad,
so i decided,
that every meal we'd have,
i would finish all her unwanted food away..
And so i did,
making a line of communication,
making us closer..

The laughters,
replaced our every sorrows,
The smiles,
brighten up our lives,
Like a candle being ignited,
in the dark and hollow spaces,
of our heart..

That time I was owned by someone,
that was why things did not go any further..
We seldom msged,
hardly contact..
Like the saying,
I'm living in pluto,
and she is in Venus,
But when u look carefully,
we're actually living on earth..

But months after,
when freedom was finally granted to me,
when i can enjoy the beautiful colours of life,
I wanted to go for the loss moments in my life,
I wanted to look for that Angel,
I wanted to revive the moments that we shared,
To make our lives colourful,
Making wonders in our dreams..

I smiled when i'm alone,
I laugh when I'm sleeping,
And wonder a lot during the day..
I felt that something was missing..
And that missing piece,
was u..

So I fought against the distance,
and came all the way,
just for you..
With my open arms,
I wish to give u warmth,
To give u support,
when u're feeling down..
To be the one,
who stays by your side everytime..

But then,
The clouds of dark sinister befalls..
My hopes were crushed,
My dreams were shattered,
My inspirations are all gone..
That's when He resurrected..
And came back calling for you..

From hell he emerges,
From hell he comes alive,
From hell he wants you back..
He fought fire with me,
He brought me down,
on my kness..

He,
destroys my everyday life..
Haunts my every dream..
He,
makes a big impact on my life,
by crushing every single hope that i have..

I'm not the man I'm suppose to be..
COz i'm beaten,
when i tried to fight fire with fire..
i made a big mistake..

I nearly lost,
so i decided to run away,
and never came back..

I tried defending you,
but i guess,
my words fall back on me..
When u defended him,
Supported him,
And left me thinking..

What am i fighting for?
Whose side am i in?
Why does these happens?
When would peace can finally smile?

I guessed,
What i've done,
is not worth the effort,
Tears and fears..
Blood and sacrifices..
Time and moments,
it has all gone down..

And as i lay dying,
I had 1% of hope left,
so i stood up,
and now i will say..

Fire cannot fight with fire,
And so,
Let me give in,
I will surrender,
I will raise my white flag,
Coz it's time,
for pain and sufeering to stop..

And so,
Today,
I'm leaving this battleground,
My white flag i will stick to the ground,
To remind you of your victory..

I'm sorry for what happened,
Now do what must be done,
SHed those fears away,
Coz i'm no longer here..

With confidence u shall stand,
And with love,
u must give to her..
ANd with my departure,
I hope,
It will give u strength,
To win her back..

U always have my support..
But now,
I'm leaving..
I know that this might not be the best decision,
but for both of your happiness,
I will..

There shall be no more Angels in my life..
No more Devils..

And As i walked,
I wondered about the Angel,
Dat i dreamt of everynight..
But then my heart shatters,
I wondered why,
Things did not go that well..
And then I knew,
she's and Angel,
But an Angel,
From Hell..

From now on,
I will leave your life,
So that things will get better,
I am weak and beaten,
And i'll find time,
to be strong again..

Take care from now on,
May Peace surronds us from now on..

2006-08-01T12:40:00.000+08:00

Today,

I went home with tears inside my heart..
Guys will never cry,
I know,
But I kept tears from falling,
Dat even my heart has to weep..

I feel useless,
I feel depressed..
I feel so lost,
I feel like a needle,
In a compass..
I didn't know which direction,
to go..

Xero Axis
My band,
My first ever band,
You moulded me,
And groomed me into someone..
from a bassist to a Vocalist..

Coz of you,
I rised and shined,
And became famous,
I became interested more in music..

Coz of you,
I began to sing,
When i walk,
When i talk,
Even when i brush my teeth..

I'll sing my heart out,
Throughout my life..

But sadly,
I have to confess,
That I'm not good enough for u guys..

Bah:
u're so talented,
u could sing,
u could compose beautiful songs,
u're just the man,
a Music Company would want

Shahril:
u're a dedicated guitarist,
u let the passion runs in your veins,
u gave it a chance,
and became a great Guitarist..
I've seen u,
From the very start,
until today..
u're talented..

Labu:
i respect a drummer like you..
u're musically talented..
i rmbered what u said in sec 1,
and i knew it was true..
no drummer could replace u..
Even if there are better ones,
i still wanna keep u..
coz u're talented,
just like the rest..

Eric:
u could sing great,
u could play bass,
guitar,
and drums..
u're very talented..

I feel that u guys are a talented bunch..
u deserve the best..

Sometimes,
i feel,
that perhaps,
the reasons we cannot find a proper genre,
is coz of me..

i blame myself for everything that we carn do,
and i feel like a idiot for so..

i just wished that you guys would pursue your passion,
coz u all are very talented..

u should do what must be done..

u should do everything,
without me..

I can always be replaced..
And i'll always see u guys perform,
I will always be supportive of your every movement..

But u all have to do it,
without me..

This is my confessions..
I've let my heart out..
Sorry I have to say this,
Coz me,

I'm just a guy,
holding a guitar,
writing lyrics on a book,
with a simple life,
And a dream..

Wish u all the best..
Never stop believing..

2006-08-01T12:07:00.000+08:00

J.U.S.T.I.C.E

Monday,
A Day of sorrow,
Pain & Depression..

This adds on to my next chapter of life..

School
Skool was Totally Awesome Today,
Guess wart,
We had about 3 hours of Sports & Wellness!
Well,we were suppose to attend class,
but we all didn't study for test,
So,it was like,
Why not make our own timetable?

And we had the match of our lives,
Fighting one another,
And grabbing the titiles of "Champions.."
Here's what i have to say to my brothers

Effendi:
I totally love the way u swing your racket,
Your skills & manuevers..Btw, my head is alright..

Yazid:
u totally improved the "Teng-teng" trick dat was once,
your weakness..Great job man..

Aizat:
Man of the match,from hero to zero,
u're the Man..

Eric:
What's more to say?
About 4 years of brotherhood,
u're totally awesome..

Dance
And we had Dance practice,
Instructed by Is..
Now Is,
you are totally a dancer which i trully respect
Coz dance are usually done by girls..
But u made it your passion,
And you are very talented..
u have brought glory to us..
Keep it up..

We were suppose to dance,
For National DAy,
Imagine Ameer hassaan dancing?
haha..people will blast into laughter..
The Singer cum Dancer,
It doesn't feel ryte..
But aniwaes,
i tried to dance,
and it's cool..

Everyone were enjoying themselves..
Even Aizat was there to dance!
haha..
I really respect people whom can dance..
Especially to guys..
To SD,
Let's make it an event that we'll never forget..
*To Bro Hafiz,Fana & Syak,
I hope you guys would join us,
Coz this might be our last one,
So let's save the last dance ayte?

Then we went home..

That's the part where I started to feel down..
I dunch noe why,
But lotsa Problems are haunting me,
This,that & those..

Perhaps the best medicine is Patience.
Perhaps that will make me survive all,
Of God's Test..

Now Tonight,
I would like to comment something..
Something which really builds the anger,
that grows inside of me..
Now i dedicate this,
To a person,
whom i classify as,
A true coward..

To True Coward

When a man loves a woman,
he really loves with all his heart..

He never fails to be there,
In times of good or bad,
The ups and the downs..

He would lay his life,and time for her..
He'll spend his day with her,
His evening thinking of her,
and his nights dreaming of her..

Coz he love her with all his heart,
And that is a very simple,
definition..

But when u love that girl,
u would give her time and space..
A space where she could think peacefully,
without disturbance or influence..

You would not act overprotective,
you would not treat her,
As if u're her husband..
Coz even her father don't treat her,
Like the way u do..

Now dat girl,
she is so sweet,
so caring,
and everything that every man would dream of..
She has touched my heart,
She'd even make it beat faster,
and slower at the same time!

SHe did wonders for me,
Coz she place herself on a simple line,
That is love..

Now I'm gonna say this to you,
As a man,
If u ever ever treat her that way again,
I swear dat Justice would come it's way..

I would not hit u,
beat u,
kill u,
or even say a bad word to u..
Coz hate is not my authority..
and i choose to be peaceful..

God is almighty,and Fair,
If u ever hurt me,or my feelings,
I put my trust in God,
To extend the Justice,
that i deserve..

Love is setting yourself free..
So if u think u're doing the right think,
think again,
coz she suffocates under your tight grip..

My advise..
Let her go,
Let her make her own decision,
Give her the freedom that u have stolen away

BE A MAN,
DO THE RIGHT THING...

I have never stolen anything,
It's just that Fate let us meet,
And surrenders her to a better man..

If u're not happy,
I can't blame you..
Coz u chose to surround yourself with hatred,
and jealousy..

you chose that way,
so u live that way..
Don't blame her..
she's not at fault..

I'm so sick & tired of the way u treat her..
Coz nobody treats my Angel dat way..

U think i stole her away from u?
Okie,
I'll help u..
Go and make a report to the Police..
And i swear,
THEY ARE GONNA LAUGH THIER FACE OFF U!

Coz u're actions are dumb,
and imature..

MY ADVISE..
GET A LIFE..

don't just claim to be a man,
Be a true,
GENTLEMEN..

That's all I have tosay..
thanks for crushing my heart,
and worst,
Hers..

Goodnight..

2006-07-31T10:00:00.000+08:00

An Everlasting Regret

The days remained cold & lonely,
And as i sat on the warm soil of Earth,
I said to Myself,
These Few Questions..

These 3 questions refer to 3 people in my life..

*What If I Left,
*What If I Stayed,
and,
*What If I had Never Left

The cool wind brushes against my hair,
The dark sinister clouds turns grey,
ready to release it's heavy pounds of rain..

Our Tears,
are stored like a bag of clouds..
Once we carn take it no longer,
It will be released,
pouring down all our heartful emotions,
Happy,
Sad,
Joy,
Pain,

all of these would be gone,
making us feel better..
but sometimes,
even though we have cried our hearts out,
why do we still have this feeling of regrets?

and this relates to my questions & doubts..

-What If I Left,
-What If I Stayed,
-What If I had never Left..

What If I left,

Will things get better?
Will things turn out cherrier without my presence?
Will hearts be happy with my absence?

Problems will be solved,
Disputes will be over,
Conflicts will end,
Hatred will diffuse,
& Happiness will Conquer..

But when I do,
What will happen to you?
Who will take care of you?
Who will put smiles & hopes,
when u're feeling sad and down?

Who will wipe your tears,
And kill away all your fears,
Throughout all your years,
In your life?

How can i be sure that he could replace me,
and be a better guy that u could ever imagine?

Can he love you more than I do?

Could he?
Would he?
Or should he?

What If I Stayed

You will be the Happiest Soul on Earth,
You will smiling,
everyday,
until the day u perish..

I would be here around you,
surrounding you with warmth,
and my everlasting care..
My words will be your guidance,
My presence will be your gift,
My songs will be your inspirations,
My existence,and yours,
will be continued,
with our children..

When we do have children,
I could look in their eyes,
and see part of us,
living inside them,
When they laugh or smile,
I remember the times,
when we used to,
during our younger days..

Eventhough i'm angry,
it will all go away,
when my children makes mistakes,
I see your love in thier eyes,
and so i hold them in my arms,
and share the love that we had,
to them..

We would spend our entire lifetime together,
till death do us part..

But others would be angry,
they would be jealous,
they would forever hate us,
and treat us very coldly,

I do not care,
coz it's u i think about,
but what if someday i'm no longer here,
what will happen to u,
or worst to the kids?

The hate,fear & jealousy will always be there..
Harming us wherever we may go..

What If I have Never left

Things will be the way it was,
Just like the way we had planned it all..

We would be celebrating our Victory of 1year anniversary,
I would still be holding u in my arms,
And love u the way i always do..

Noone could replace me,
and noone could take u away from me..

For i'm older,
i'll be wiser,

I'll be your,
Mentor,
Lover,
Teacher,
And all the occupation u'd ever think of..

Coz to me,
Love only mentions one language..

Your life now wouldn't be sad,
You would not have met those people..
You would always have me to cling on,
to solve your doubts when your brain shuts down,
and give u hope when yr faith is lost..

You would be a leader in your cca,
along with my motivation..

Your family disputes would be over,
coz i'm here to make them feel better..

You would still keep a best fren,
and enjoy the happy times again..

But..

It's all "what if",
it has not happened,
it's just an imagination..
it's jst a dream,
and remains here as a regret..

After looking at all these problems,
I felt it with my heart..

I felt guilty,
I felt useless..
For not being the man I'm suppose to be..
I should have done it,
I know I could,
I'm confident I would,

But it's all useless now..
No point regretting..

The only cure for me,
Is Hope..

I could lose everything,
money,girls or family,
But it's hope that never stops believing,
and that's the reason i should live..

Till then..
Goobye..

2006-07-26T13:50:00.000+08:00

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect.
It means that you have decided to look,
beyond the imperfections."

Tuesday,
The 2nd day of school
Morning was cool,
And it did rained,(amazingly)
but then it stopped..
Making the atmosphere warmer again..

AFD
All was fine,
Met my cool & loving classmates..
Saw Ms Sally with her short hair,
and I have a new name for her,
(Ms Mangkuk! wahaha)
But she still looks lovely in dat hairstyle..

OFA
was tremendously,
amazingly,
heavenly,
BORING..

Oh my..
I really missed Ms Chua..
Ms Chua,
you were always there for me,
no matter right or wrong,
u always sang me a song,
of hope,warmth & care..
I really missed you..
Plz do take care,
in your life's journey..
I'll always pray for you..

I really hope that Mrs Lim could replace Ms Chua,
At least i could study better,
And strive for better grades..
She is still new though,
let's give her time to fully,
hatch out from her egg..
All hopes are on you..

Lunch Break
And here are the highlights of the day,
As soon as the clock struck 1pm,
We made our way down,
To the ground,
where skills are ignited,
Where the spirit of soccer triumps..

There was a group of boys playing,
And our feets are so itchy,
And we couldn't wait to whack the ball..

So after tightening my Addidas Predator Shoe,
I walked with hope & fear,
We will be in a competition somewhere in September,
And we have to start training now,
and here comes the test..

We were playing 5 a side..
In my Team,
here are the heroes..
.Hafiz Bro
.Aizat
.Eric
.Yazid
.and Me..

We were against a team of experience,
some big big,
and some were small small,
And one of their players were superb..

He is a chinese guy,
he is damn fast,
he reminds me of Park Ji Sung,
of Manchester United..

We were on a losing end,
The thread was about to tear,
And i was filled with more fears..

But then,
all my frenz were watching,
and i didn't wanna disappoint them,
so i snatched the ball,
rolled past 1,
dribbled past 2,
Faked 3,
and "Ole-d" the Keeper,
and striking the ball like hell..

And making the first superb goal!
I gave hope to my team,
and i was proud,
coz we all played really well,

Hafiz
was a good Captain,
never failed to give commands,
and become the backbone of the team..

Aizat
is the Libero of the squad,
without him,
the line of defence is gone,
All our hopes lies on his hand..

Eric
The master of trickos,
He never fails to produce a skill..
His teamwork is like an iron fist,
Communicates real well with others..

Yazid
The lone striker of the team,
The one who will finish the passes & crosses,
The one who will turn the tide..
And so,all chances he must not waste..

Ameer Hassaan
I dunch noe what i'm good at,
But i feel my strength lies,
In assisting..
I can dribble past any player that oppose me..

When i really look at my team,
I'm really proud to have them,
everyone is special in his or her own way..
With such talents in our team,
We are,going to make an impact..

Man of the Match
And the man of the match,
Is Me!

Not because I played well,
but something terrible happened!

A high ball was coming,
and i wanted to do a scissors kick,
when suddenly i heard a sound,
"krakk!"

I was stunned,
what was that?
I then felt cool in my pants,
it's like there was an air con blowing in..

But it was the wind alright,
And when i looked below,
Oh my!
I tore my pants!

The hole was so big,
that aizat could put his head in..
But why did he do dat for?
Is he gay?
haha..

And thanks to Fana again,
for getting me the shorts,
you were always there for me..
Thanks..

So basically,
Datz all I have to say for the day..

Here are words from me to My loved ones,

Ilah,
A real man,
would treasure a woman's feeling.
He considers them fragile,
And gives his heart in taking care of it.
So if there's a manwho makes you cry,
He's not even a man to begin with..

Fana,(Nani)
To sacrifice,
takes great patience & strength,
These qualities will be your motivation,
throughout your journey..
But always remember,
The greatest gift,
that God ever gave us,
Is the ability to make decisions..
Make full use of dat freedom,
And u will unlock your destiny..

AYn,
Pls do take care of yourself,
u have been gone for some times,
and at times,
i thought that you were kidnapped..
I would not want to see u on Tv,
In the next serials of "Missing",
okie?haha..
Remember,
i'm always here for you..

Fatin Hanani,
One day I woke up,
I looked at my hp,
And i saw yr messages,
we started communication,
and came back to where we went missing..

The heart,
may just be an organ,
that pumps blood all around the body,

But it doesn't stop there,
COz it also pumps,
Hope,Strength & Patience,
all over us,
And that make it the strongest muscle,
ever..
Use dat strength wisely,
u can do it..
I have faith in you..

Gd Night Everyone,
Sweet dreams..

First Day of School

2006-07-25T07:45:00.000+08:00

Helluu Readers!!!
Today is Monday,
The first day of skool..
Gosh,it has been 3 weeks of holiday,
and i gotta admit,
I really do miss school..

Woke up kinda late,
but managed to hurry through to skool.
20min journey to skool,
And first lesson,
was Physical Ed..

Everyone played badminton,
as usual..
And had a fun of a time..

Haha,
And as always,
The conflict between Aizat & Ameer,
collides and remains unsettled..
Always tried to win each other..

But the best man always wins,
and datz me..haha..
Anyways,it doesn't matter,
for in our heart lies happiness,
and that makes time worthwhile..

Lessons were normal,
and oh god,
Ms Sally cut her hair,
It was super-duper short..
But she looked younger & sweet,
now datz my teacher!

For OFA,
No more Ms Chua,
she's gone..
ANd is replaced by Mrs Lim,
a married & old teacher..
oh well..carn complain much can i?

Ms Chua,
Where'd you go?
I missed you so..
Seems like it's been forever,
Since you were gone,
pls come back to skool!

Then,
A good news came by,
We're selected to represent our skool,
FOr a Futsal Competition,
yeah,it'z on 5th September,
An inter-skool competition..
(soccer if u dun get what i mean)

And the 10 heroes r,
1-Hasyim
2-Hafiz
3-Hafiz Jab
4-Eric
5-Yazid
6-Aizat
7-Ameer Hassaan
8-Koh Wee
9-Fendi
10-Misha(The Last Female Standing)

Wish us all the best,
To make the school proud,
remember,
your prayers are my motivation..

After school,
Had lunch at KFC,
along with Handicapps & Sluts Inc,
Aizat & I were catching up on old times,
and talked mostly about aLiens v.s Predator..
what to do,crap it is,
but talking crap is my hobby,
and dat is what i missed doing most..

Then after Lunch,
we discussed about the band..
Currently,
Dere's only 3 of us,
Me,Yazid & Eric..
Though we may have performed,
And have the experience,
It is still not enough,
so today i made a difference,
To shape out the foundation of the band..

After much discussion,
We came out with the verdict..
There are now 7 members in the band..
Here are the 7 heroes..

Aizat, (Lead Vocalist)
Hafiz, (Drummer)
Yazid, (Lead Guitarist)
Eric, (Rhythm Guitarist)
Fendi, (Bassisst)
Hasyim, (Trumpet,back-up Vocalist)
and me, (Pianist & Violinist)

This is Yazid's hope &dreams,
To quote,
It's almost every teenager's dream to have a band,
have their own gigs,
and make their first album,be it demo or real..

And so,
I'm taking a step Further,
To make this dreams alive..
Coz your dreams,
are your unborned future..
If you give it a try,
It will come out alive..

To Yazid My bro,
I heard your wishes the other night,
And trust me,
with my talent and will,
I will make your dreams alive..
Coz u're a very special bro..

U're a great guy & wise person,
U're like my elder,
And I won't disappoint you..
I promise..

Datz all I got for now,
To all readers,

Never fear to showcase yr abilities,
For if you do,
It will remain hidden,
and without any chance to prevail..
So let them go,
Coz who knows,
they might bring you to greater standard,
of life..

*CAn you think of a band name for us?

2006-07-23T03:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday To My Second Youngest Sister,
Nurul Shakira Yazid,
A Very Happy 15th Birthday To You
WIsh You all the Best & Success oF LiFe..

I do have a present for you,
haha..
But it's painful,and you have to endure 15 punches,
Dat's my present for you this year,
erm..perhaps every year..

The Song Is "Hips Don't Lie" by SHakira,
Haha..I dedicate it to you..

Well,
Today goes to her,
So I'm gonna tell a story about her..

Okie,
She was borned on 1991,
2 years after i was borned..

I was the youngest at that point,
Apart of being the only son,
I received all the love in the world,
I was like the Prince in the family,

But sadly,
this sister of mine had to come,
and stole most of what i have,
away from me..

Everything is channelled to her,
but what to do,
you have to give in as an elder..

She is a very sporty girl,
loves being under the sun so much,
(that's why she is so dark)
SHe is intellectually very smart,
confident & rough..

SHe was like a tomboy in Primary school,
And she is a real damn sore loser,
I remembered whenever i beat her in a game,
She would throw my ps controller away,
haha..and we always get into fights,
(and i'll always win)

But luckily,
she does like guys,
From tomboy to a more lady-like character,
(but i still wish she could wear a skirt)

She is daddy's & grandad's favourite..
(of course,they r all black,wahaha..)
and she is th type which you can't trust,
and if i wanna rob a bank,
i can't ask her,
coz she will tell da police herself,
and get me into trouble..

And today she is 15..
More mature i'll say,
i'm proud that u made it this far,
So spread yr wings & fly away..
Rmb,
The future belongs to those,
who believe in the beauty of their dreams..

My Wishes & Aspirations For You,
(all these below is what i have learned)
1) Choose the correct boyfriend,
2) Study hard,Make it to J.C,
3) Excel In Ncc,At least be a Staff Sergeant,
4) DOn't be a doink at home,stop disturbing Nana
5) Pls use the phone wisely,don't talk,
as if there's no tomorrow..
6) Though i'm yr bro,i'm not yr maid..rmb dat!!
7) Be Happy,always..

Well,
that's all i have for you..
Gd Luck Ira in your life..
I'm always here,haha,
if u need me..

*Does she look like me?

A New Day Ahead

2006-07-22T14:30:00.000+08:00

Helluu People...!!

I'm back,
After an Exciting & Awesome Day..
And here i am sitting in front of the computer,
ready to let my heart out..

First News,
I have changed my blogskin..
Thanks To Fana on Her Feedback,
I think the old one is plain,
with everything black & white..
It seems like I'm a dead person there,
haha..

So I decided to add more colours to it,
Coz colours show brightness in our pictures,
and that,
brings our moments to life..

The Song is called, "Dancing In The Moonlight",
I chose this song becoz it's displays Happiness,
And it goes along well with the layout of my skin..
Thanks to ayn for your comments,
I hope this song will no longer make you cry,aight?

2nd News,
Ncc Training was great!
I came back to skool,
as I would every Friday..

This time i wasn't alone,
Azril was there,
Whew i'd say,
Coz i have been alone 4 the past trainings,
And never again I will be in the future..

We had so much fun,
Drills,P.T and Talk-Cock-Session(TCS)
I love Ncc Training so much..

Coz i'm able to make a difference,
And reach out for those in need..
ANd I have to thank Ncc,
For making the Man I am Today..

The PArt A's rock,
But The Best Part is,
definitely,
The PArt B's..
(Coz u are trained by me!)

U guys are so sporting,
and without you,
there will be no life in my uniform,
that i am wearing..
The cadets makes me alive..
Thanks Guys..

3rd News,
I wanna use this moment,
To thank,

Yazid,
Nurimah,
Aslynda,
Ayn,
Dyana,
Hafiz My Bro,
Ilah,
Fana,
& Niszah,

for showing me so much care,
when i was feeling so down yesterday..
there's no place to get u,
and datz something,
dat,
NTUC,
GIANT,
& all other shops could not sell,

and that's "Friendship"..

haha,yeah,
that's right..

Today,
My frenz helped me by doing something simple,
And Tomorrow,the day after & Forever,
I will in return do my part,
To help them whenever they're in need..
Thanks Guyz..

4th News,
I'm missing somebody,
SOmehow I could only hear her voice,
Behind those clouds up above..
when will the clouds part?
so that this feeling will go away..

I missed everything bout her,
When she calls my name,
When she taps me on my back,
When she laughs,When she smiles,

The way she talk,
The way she walks,
The way she laughs when i wear wrong socks,
haha..

Missed everything bout it..
Can't wait to see you again..
Take care Nani..

Finally..

I have blogged bout today..
Maybe tmr will be going out,
dunch noe where,
but i'll just follow wherever my heart would lead me..

And to those reading my blog,
Thanks so much for caring,
To My Ite Frenz,
-The Handicapps
-Sluts Inc.
-Joyah Club,
I Miss u so much..
*Pls take care of yourself,
I'll see u guys on Monday..

Guys..Letz prepare for soccer!

Till Then,
Gd Nyte To all of Yar..

2006-07-21T14:00:00.000+08:00

When I cared too much..

Tonight,
I went back home feeling down
When i looked up,
The stars were gone,
When i tried looking for the moon,
it was there,
but it glowed helplessly..

The pain swells on my heart,
It's been long since i felt this way
The feeling is so painful,it's like suicide..
I carn help the agony and worries that my heart contains..
Until when will this go on,
When will it finally stop?

I looked at myself in the mirror,
i stared at every angle of my face,
My eyes,
My cheeks,
My Nose,
My Ears,
My hair,
and almost everything..

I hated myself,
I hated for who i really am..
Sometimes I wonder,
Why do i have to suffer this way?
Why do i receive pain,
when my heart starts sincerely?

I think & think..
There must be an explanation for this..

My life quote,
was to Make a difference,
no matter how big or small,
far or near,
I will accomplish it..
Coz my heart is sincere,
And i wished to make the world a better place to live in..

Sometimes,
I wonder,
After all the hardships I have done,
was it worth it?
Was it worth my every single sweat and efforts?

Everyday i meet new people,
And different people have different mindsets,
And that i understand mostly..
That's why to overcome it,
I placed in patience and sincerity..

Someday & Somehow,
I'll make things work,
Big or small,
Far or Near,
I'll try my best..

But tonight,
I really feel down,
I feel sad..

What do you really want from me?
What?
What?
What?!

What's dat u're nt happy with?
Do u want money?
Do u want love?
Do u want fame?

What do you want?!

Why do u treat me differently?
Sometimes it's great,
but sometimes you placed me in troubled waters,
when in fact,
i am really innocent?
why do u have to blame me for things i didn't do?

I put my efforts in you,
But u drained it away..
Coz in the end,
It doesn't really matter now..

I want to hate,
but I chose not to,
Coz hate is not an authority to me,
I have no right to hate..
Datz why i chose to love..

But i guessed,
sometimes my gratitude is mistaken for something more..
sometimes to your eyes it's hope,
sometimes to your heart is love,
that's why u expect much from me..
isn't it?
huh?

I may not cry,
But behind these eyes i do..
The tears doesn't rolled out,
Instead,it rolled in,
My heart is crying..
Can't you see that?
Can't you?

Are you blind?
What are you actually?

because of you,
my heart is broken..
a million thanks i'd give yar..

now my heart is broken,
what can u do for me?

nothing..

So it's not worth it..
at all..

Sorry For my Painful words..

I'm killing my pain away..
Goodnight..

2006-07-21T04:35:00.000+08:00

A Day Ahead

The sun is up,
but it looks so down..
Though it shines brightly,
the clouds seems so cloudy,
Rain or shine I may not see,
Coz God has planned it all,
It is meant to be..

I woke up as the sun rised,
but I never slept when it sets,
Though my days move on so quickly,
My heart slows,it misses somebody,
And Rain or Shine I may not see,
Coz God has planned it all,
It is meant to be..

20th July,the date of today
here I am typing,with not much to say..
Ncc Camp Feast has juz ended,
Now i'm washing my uniform,
which is covered in dirt..

The Camp was fun,the camp was amazing,
2 days 1 night,it seems so thrilling,
I met 34 new faces,
with all from different races,
And I had a partner to aid,
and he was wearing braces..

Hey Guys,
I'm back from the outback..
Sorry for the long-winded poems..
I guessed I was carried away,
by the waves of emotions,
Luckily I tapped my head,
if not i would have been dead,
in an emo state..

Camp Feast,
17-18 July 2006..
It will be my second Camp feast as a CLT..
After this there will be none,
And i have to wait,
For the very next one..

This time,
the group of people changed,
Camp Feast 1 and 2 was different,
some people were not here,
and some new faces came..

The worst part was,
The camp will be aided by Land and Sea Clt's..
Due to shortage of Manpower of Air CLt's..
I feel kinda sad,Coz We used to be so united,
But when skool came,
some came,and some had to go..

*To all Air Cadet Lieutenants,
Your presence is greatly appreciated,
Forget not our pledge that we took,
For if you do,
You'll be breaking only what you have preached..
Pls come back home..

But the camp committee were made up of wonderful people,
There were old frenz,
Haikal,
Sahibu,
Rahim,
Murdanny,
Darren,
Suryana,
Mirza,
Vicknesh,
Alvin,
and more..

And there were new frenz,
Shazeli,(ite clementi fren)
Farit,(Airborne Diver)
Suhaimi,(soccer talent)
Aisyah,(Former Primary School fwen)
Azfar,(braces guy)

To the new guys,
You people rawk the camp..
Thanks for your help & motivation,
God must have loved us,
Datz why he let us meet,
Thanks for the moments,
you'll have a place in my heart..

And so,
The camp went well,
All were sec2,
Most were childish,
But i didn't care,
I wanted them to have fun,
And datz an order,
from me..
haha..

It's been days since i went online,
so i went to my fwenz blog,
and read about their everyday life,
And now,will be a time,
for me to "Do them A Favour"

To my brother,
who is known as Doctor Pandi
Here is a prescription for you,
From me,Doctor May Gay..

Hey my bro,
dun feel upset about what you have done,
it'z not a mistake,
and dun ever regret..
Just look at yourself today,
you have made so many fwenz..

I'm glad u were welcomed by me & eric,
Coz when the first time i met u,
u were sitting alone,
And after the second time i met u,
u told me u were from pasir ris

And when i look at your eyes,
there were lonliness and fears,
And from dat moment onwards,
Throughout your stay,for 2 years,
I'm gonna wipe those lonliness away,
and make u feel home..

And i hope i had done what i must,
and when the period u were so close to sluts,
i didn't feel mad,
instead,i felt happy,
coz u were laughing out so loud,
until your tears rolled down yr cheek..
I'm glad i did the opening and welcoming,

Remember,
we humans always have the strongest power,
and that,
is the power of making decisions,
and dats basically the best freedom we can ever have..

Don't feel bad bro,
Just rmb,
there is a guy who live in the west,
who cares,
and regards you as his bro..
rmb dat,
always..

*By the way,
I'm not being gay okie..
haha..

Time is running out,
I'll post some more later..

The weather is hot,
and plz take care of yourself..

"Some say love makes you weak from vulnerability,
I say love makes you strong from surviving the fires of passion."

2006-07-16T19:43:00.000+08:00

A Day With Titans

1 Message Received:
Sender: Maya

There will be a Titans gathering on Saturday, 6.30pm at City Hall.
Pls come to pay for your titans tshirt,
And spend the night for a whole exciting event..

Yesterday,
there was another Titans gathering,
yes,and it has been a very2 long time..
Since i last met them..

The only Titans i met was adi padi,
Dat too when I was on the way home from chalet..

So,it was a time to catch up wif everyone..

P.m,
Gerry,
Maya,
Lester,
Chin Wu,
Zulfadhli,
Hamka &
dearie was there..

haha..
after meeting up,
and btw,
she was late,
I reached at 6pm,and she, 6.20pm..

but it doesn't matter now,
when i saw her,
it vanquish all the thoughts away,
just like the soap product,Vanish Power 02,
It does work..

So we had our meal at Peninsula Plaza,
As usual at Burger King,
I wanted Komalas but looking at their faces,
I just laughed..It's alright..

We had lotsa fun,
asking here and there..
My J.c fwenz failed their semester,
while my poly fwenz were deadly stressed..
haha..maybe it was a blessing in disguise for me!

They are skooling and i'm having my holidays now..

Then after 1 hour,
we decided to go esplanade,
to watch the baybeat concert..
I dunch noe what the heck is dat,
but it doesn't matter,
Their company is what i adore most..

Upon reaching,
We met Faris,
Now faris is really a great guy,
He has just completed his airbourne course..

Now In Ncc,
Airbourne is a very prestigious course,
U have to train for 1 month,
and bear in mind,
That they will wear you out like tires,
and give u a hell's training,
And you will have to jump out from various aircrafts,
at about 60,000 feet..
just to earn the wing on your chest..

And i'm proud that one of my buddy made it..
Mine will be next year..Pray hard..

Then,Niszah & I went off..

I promised her that I would send her home,
And i wanted to spend some time with her..
It has been four long months since i last saw her,
And i couldn't take it no longer,
But after looking at her eyes,
I felt better,and calm..

Along the way back to Pasir Ris,
We catch upon our old times,
ask about the past & the present..
The future?hehe..
I'll have to build up on my courage to even think bout dat..

Though it was a 26min trip,
I enjoyed it..
This is the first time i sent her home..
upon reaching pasir ris,
she as usual wanted to get her ice cream,
and so it is then..

And Dat night,
the moon was full,
and it was shining brightly on us..
it's like leading the way home..

And the best part was,
I managed to go through the places she did everyday,
Dat time i was absent,
But I wanna make a difference,
I dun wanna miss a thing..

So we walked in the park,
Passed through the playground,
Smiled past the quarry,(which i thought was a swimming pool)
And finally crossed the bridge,with her..

We talked about her life,
Her skool & stuff..
It was like sending a princess home..
And she was like cinderella..
haha..

After about 15 min of walking,
We finally reached her flat..
It was a scary way there,
i bet she was more brave then me..
Then,she left,
and said goodbye..

"Thanks for sending me.."

I smiled,
and walked to the bus stop..

I sat down,
I looked at the sky,
The moon was shining at me,
But somehow my heart was not ryte,
It felt bad,
I couldn't explain it..

Will the next time i meet her is about 4 months away?
Do i still wanna come and go,
And actually never really there for her?

These questions started a whirlpool in my head..
Then,
at the end of it all..
I knew,
I was missing her..

She then msged me,
We finally could discuss bout the future..
though things could be hard,
We knew we could work together to achieve our dreams..

And I knew,
Hope was there..

She's the greatest Best Friend that God could ever give me,
And i appreciate it,
I dun wanna miss a thing anymore,
I dun wan Regret as a companion no more,
I wana follow my heart,
And dat is never fail to make u smile..

I will still come and go,
I came in your life last december,
And i'll go,
When my time is up,
when It's time for me to leave..

I can do it,
For you,I will,
Take care..

2006-07-16T14:32:00.000+08:00

A Chalet,To Remember

A thousand nights I lived in Fear,
But no no longer,
As she wiped away My Tears...

HEy Ya..

It'z been kinda a long time since i updated,
and some girls been asking to update,
and Fana,here i'll go..

1st Day of chalet
Met Fana,Aizat,Hafiz,Wani & Ayn,
and made our 1 hour trip all the way to the east..
Pasir Ris was our destination,
and along the way,
had some fun,laughed here and there,
ad disturbed the small girl who slept,
with mouth wide open..

Suppose to catch the Shuttle Bus at 3.15,
But we missed it,
And the next bus is one hour from there..
But we improvised,
Some ate lunch at Mcs,
While Me,Rico & Sir Aizat took a cheaper meal,
at Old Chang Kee..
They served good food..But can never beat the army's!
Army All The Way!

Met Yazid and Tunku Hasyim..
I didn't noe why,but i kinda mixed up his name to Hisyam..
SO guys,which is better?
1) Hasyimah Hashim,
or
2) Hisyam Hashim?
Your votes,u decide..
why am i speaking like Gurmit?
Anyways,
all set and ready,
went to take the bus..

Upon reaching,
we were all captivated by the beauty of the villa..
My,i thought it was just a small place like downtown east,
but this year,it was different..
So 4 1/2 years of waiting brings gd reward!

then after settling admin stuff,
the sluts + ayn + ilah,
went for a heroic swim,
while the handicapps,
played our all time favourite,
"soccer"..

Then Raj,Koh wee & Hafiz joined,
Making the game more challenging..
Yazid displayed gd skills,
And Koh wee was the defender of the day..
Aizat took off his shirt and tied around his head,
tell me..it's either he looked like,
1) Bangla worker
or
2) A Pirate, (Lost From The Carribean)

haha..aniwaes,
had a heaven time of my life,
as soon as the sun sets,
The barbecue started,
And i wanna use this moment to thank,
1) SHak,
2) Is,
for helping to start the fire..

5 years plus in Ncc and the thing i could never do,
was to set up a fire..
That was a good job guys..

We had a wonderful time,
Ayu came wif her guy,and his fren,
Fendi introduced to me his best friends,
The girl was like an angel man,

and after about 10pm,
the place was quiet,
we all listened to the sole of the calm,
dance music..oh my..

The chinese clan went home,
I'm not sure why,
But Koh Wee and Angie were so lucky,
They paid $20 bucks each,
but in the end,
they had the whole villa to themselves..
and i mean it..
It's like heaven drop money from the sky for them..
lucky them..

Then at about 1am,
ilah came wif her group of "budak lepaks"
I was kinda shocked by her fwens,
they way they looked,their personality,
And ilah actually lepak wif them,
kinda feel sad for her,
But in my heart i never fail to understand,
and dats what makes me positive..

At 2am,
With the guidance of Timon and Hyqel,
we all proceeded for night walk,
from aloha,to the maze of Pasir Ris,
Some didn't want to,
but in the end,
One for all,all for one..

After the intensive turn and turn round the maze,
we all chilled at the bright place,
where Yazid and I called it,
"The Wizard of Oz"

We split in 2 groups,
Handicapps and Sluts,
Okie,half handi and half sluts i'll say,
we were talking about weird army stories,
when suddenly,
Fana stood up and said,

"Can we go back,NOW!!!"

she was so panicked,and in her eyes,
i saw fear,
i saw tears,
and i knew something was wrong..

Hyqel looked different,
i knew he saw something..

We all marched home together,
closed together,
as if we are like the atoms of a solid compound,
we were like sardines,
all of us knew that something was just not right..

But the rule was,
No talking,until we reached the doors of chalet..

When we reached,
one by one started to pour in their fears..

The thing was,
fana's group heard the pontianak's laughter,
or maybe her calm and soothing voice,
but on the other hand,
my group heard nothing..

And when we were on the way back,
at the park,
all of them smelt flowers,
The scene of Lavender,
it was so sweet,
they can feel it,
and they also hear her voice,
following us..

That was what freaked us out..

They all were so scared that they slept in the living room,
boy or girl,
they don't care..
as long as they are lotsa peeps,
they didn't mind..

I was so thinking bout it,
but i knew noone could understand my ability,
and so,
i kept quiet..

But,
i was too hungry for the ghostly encounter,
so me,yazid & syim cooked maggi,
thanks to is,
and had a chicken maggi,
mixed with chilli,soya,oyster,
and all the crap we placed in..
which resulted in,
=me shiiting early in the morning..

2nd Day
It was normal,
Sad thing was,
Aizat had to leave,
and also me,
coz i had malay oral..
we said goodbyes at 10.50am,
and turned our backs on Aloha..
And Aizat told me,
it was the best damn chalet he had ever experienced..

Luckily Aizat was there to accompany me,
for the one hour trip back to the west..
Along the way,
We talked bout girls and stuff..
And soon after,
I dozed off..
Aizat woked me up when we reached J.E,
It's time for me to said goodbye to him..
Ireally miss him..
Somehow,
there's a bond that connects us..

I went home,
the first thing i did,
was to unleash all my tummy aches,
and then,to finish up what mum cooked..

i rested for 10min,
and changed..
i prepared myself for the oral,
and went to teck whye sec..
I met Nor & Fairoz,
Later met Hazraq,
and talked bout his music journey and all the crap..
I was nervous,
But my confidence saved me,
and it all went well..

as soon as the oral was over,
i made my way back to the east,
i really missed them,
i knew i had to go back..
i couldn't wait to see their faces,

Handicapps,
Sluts,
and the rest..
I felt at home with them..
Coz we're already bonded with them,
and now,
I consider them,
My Family..

haha..
For the one hour trip,
I had someone to accompany me,
And dat was ayn!
she msged me on the way to the west,
and also back to the east,
thanks for keeping me company!

i reached Pasir Ris at 4.30pm,
i missed the bus by 15min,
and the next bus is at 5.45 pm..
I gotta wait for about 1 hour,
I dun like to wait,
so i decided to walk there..

Let me be,
it may be long,
but i dun mind..
i wanted to feel the wind,
i wanted to walk the road she walk,
i wanted to cross the bridge she does everyday..

Coz i dun wanna miss a thing..

So i walked,
i walked past the park,
it was lovely,
the playground,and the swing..
Then i saw the quarry,
that was where the poeple sat for hours,
and gazed at the beauty of nature..

then i saw the bridge,
so this was the bridge,
that she walked on everyday..
And when i placed my foot on it,
i felt a very special feeling,
like as if i was home..
i smiled,and continued my journey..

I reached downtown east,
But it's not there yet,
It's further down at least,
And i gotta walk further down that..

I walked past the calm sea,
while the cool wind blew upon my face,
The bright sun flashed down it's energy to the trees,
making the chlorophyll produce food,
and makes the plants look all so green..
oh..it'z all so beautiful..

when everything sums up,
it all makes my day..
without much words to say,
turns my life colourful from grey..
making my life a wonderful rainbow,
oh..it'z all so beautiful,

when i walk past the seas,
and when i smile at the flowers,
and when the clouds shade over me,
when everything is just so right,
making my life assured,with no rains,
putting sunshine at every corner,
and that's what i call,
Downtown East..

A place so magical..
A place where i'll never get sick off..

Then after all my magical dreams are done,
i reached the chalet,
i then took out my wire and played ps2 wif eric..
we played fifa street2 and racing..
which i tied wih fana..haha..

at night,
everyone stayed in the chalet,
nobody went out,
all feared the same thing might happen..
But even though we didn't went out,
the 'thang' was wif us,
inside with us,
under the same roof..

The funny part was,
at 1am,
everyone said they wanted to sleep,
so all the handicapps and company went up,
but that didn't end,
it's as if something held them up,
and they kept going up and down..
that startled me..

then ayn cried,
and i knew something happened,
but we all shut our mouths,
and pretended nothing happen..

3rd Day
It was the end,
after check out and stuff,
it's time to bid farewell and go home..
we all cleaned the chalet,
and make it looked beautiful,
after checking out,
we all left..

I carried my bag,(which is the biggest)
and placed it down,
I looked at the villa,
i smiled,and kissed goodbye..
"someday we'll all come back again,
and have this party one more time..
I promise.."

We reached Pasir Ris,
and had another 1 hour trip back hm..
I'll never forget this time,moment and adventure..
It will be kept inside my heart..
I will happen again,
somehow i noe..

But the funny part was,
my friends could either,
Smell,
See,
Or hear the voice of Pontianak..
But I experienced none..
I felt weird..
even eric saw a headless thingy..

Everyone could,
I couldn't..
Coz i'm never alone,
I'm looked after,
by something..

Is it a gift or a curse?

2006-07-09T14:12:00.000+08:00

PerHaps,PerHaps,PerHaps...

A New Day Unfolds..

Helluuu Folks..
A Very Gd Day To Yar aLL..

Supposedly Me and my frenz are to play tennis,
But The Management Has Confirmed that,
all Tennis Courts all fully booked for the day,
Argh..Feel so bad,I knew Is was looking forward to it..

Someday I'll Make a day For ya'all to come..
Thousand Apologies..

Well,
HAd a great tyme yesterday,
_went to Malay Class
_Msged Angel..(I'm Sorry!It was meant to be a joke!)
_Bought My Surfing shorts and Items for the chalet..
_(wasted about $30 or so)
_went for a great 45min run,and 30min of weight-lifthing..
_Msged Classmates(we all are so excited..!)

haha..
Over the Day,
Ayn msged me..
She advised & comforted me bout my ex,
It was really a great effort from her..
Thanks for caring ayn,
Your turn will cum during the chalet..

Then Fana(Nani),
Hope you're doing better,
I'm always here if you need me..
You can have me for 3 complete days..
During the chalet..
haha..see ya..

To Lindz..
Hehe..see,i told ya u can come..
But it all goes down to Faith And God,
Faith-coz u never gave up hope,
And God-He loves you No matter what,
That's why he plans your happiness here..
See ya at the chalet..
I'll have time for you too..

Wow..
carn wait for the chalet..haha..
Really loads of fun..
It has been about 4 1/2 years since i went..
Now i'm following what my heart wants..
"Have Lotsa Fun"..

haha..

But sadly,
I'm going to be raped by Fendi,Eric,Aizat and Yazid..
Then i told Fana,thought she'd help..she did..
She said,"Cool,tell me when it's time,i'll call the rest to join in."
haha..i can feel the sensation of excitement already..

*I think my a** hole is gonna be bigger after the chalet..

It will be from 10-12th..
I'm looking forward to this..

But the time i'm looking forward is at night,
I wanna bring myself,my guitar and my inspirations to the sea,
Sit by it..strum a few notes,
and enjoy the cool breeze of the sea..
that's when i'll set myself free..

I'll use this moment to erase my past,
Just like how i did last time,
To set me free from her,
It haunts me whenever i think of her..
It gives me the heartache..

But i know my friends will be there for me..
True friends i shall say..

That's all folks..
see ya 3 days later,
with pics and a new,

-Tanned..
Ameer Hassaan..

*I never regret walking away..
*I only regretted loving someone who doesn't love me the way I do..

2006-07-09T03:15:00.000+08:00

FuneraL For A Friend

A Very Good Morning To aLL oF YaR..

It's Saturday!

A Cool,

Fun,

And a Day not to be missed!

(Smilez..)

Heyz..

I just settled some of the houseworks,
and here i am sitting in front of the computer,
ANd I have been wanting to blog about Someone,
Since Now I have the time,
Let's Just do It..

Aight..

The person I'm calling out is Aslynda!
(Lindz)

Hey Lindz,

Thanks for sharing your problem out to my ears,
On that faithful Monday,
It really means a lot to me,
And I felt honoured to share some of my stories with yar..

Well,
If you can see,
Me and yar,
We're kinda similar in a way,

During Sec Skool,
I was a very well-known person,
Just mention my name,
And they will tell who i am..

The teachers noes me,
I have a big buunch of frenz,

I was the President(USM) of Ncc,
So lotsa cadets know me,
I was in a band Xero Axis,
So more people start to look out for me,

So generally,
I was like you,
Someone famous back in skool,
The guy who is this and that..

And like everyone,
They really look into my results..
And when i didn't get to poly or Jc,
I feel like a total reject..

Everyone start to ask me,
Hey,which skool u going,
what course i'm intending to go..

But when i look at my results slip,
MOE offered me onll 2 courses,
Business Admin,
and Sports & Management..

All my frenz went to Poly and Jc,
while i was stuck with nothing..

But the saddest part was,
when i reached home,
and when my mum opened the door,
She smiled,and ask about my results..

I was so ashamed and disappointed,
that i ran straight to my room,
I locked the door,
And stayed there for an hour or so..

I looked at the Poly booklets,
And was desperate to find a course,
that i was eligible for..
I searched and searched,
There were courses,
but i couldn't fit in..
SImply becoz i failed my maths..

Then i knew i couldn't run,
SO i opened the door and let my mum in..
she sat down with me..
She opened the Ite booklet,
and told me,

"Now go to Ite,
Study hard,
Make your way to Poly,
It may be a longer route,
But it doesn't matter,
Life is like climbing a mountain..
Our aim is to reach the top.
Some poeple reached faster,
while some slower..
It doesn't matter who reached first,
But what matters is that we never fail to reach the top..
And that's your duty,
To make a difference.."

I almost cried,
But i held on to my tears..
Men dun cry,
Men are brave,
But why do i feel like crying?
Why am i not the man i'm suppose to be?

But i knew,
though my Mum is supportive,
I saw sadness in her eyes,
She didn't cried on front of me..
But i knew deep in her heart,
She was crying deeply..

She was disappointed,
That Her only son,
Failed his O Levels..

But one thing she did,
Was she never gave up on me..
And that's why she's my mother..

Like me,
And like you,
Our Mum is all the same..
One thing they share in common,
They love us with all their hearts,
They may scold us,
yell at us,
or even hit us,

But the bottomline is,
They still love us..

I am the only son,
while you're the only child..

That's why they love us,
and never give up..

Lin,
I'm glad you never let go your anger on your mum,
I salute you for that..

And lin,
You're a very positive and Potential-minded person,
I'm sure someday,
If u don't stop jumping,you will reach your goals..

*When Lin jumps and touches the basketball net,
-Ameer can already jump and touch the sky..

haha..just kidding..

But my mistake was,
I didn't study,
I spent my time doing things that simply won't benefit me,
I thought that love could bring me anywhere,
But with this kind of results and all my sacrifices,
What can she do right?

-Nothing..

So Lin,
This enntry is for you..

I never fail to pray for you..
Have faith in yourself..
I will see you in the chalet,
That's my promise to you..
Don't give up yet,
The race is not over..
Till then,
Have faith in whatever you do..

Take care..!

*To Yazid,
-Nyce blog you have..
-you're a great buddy,
-when you're with me,you won't think of her..
-i'll make you think of me 24/7..haha..

Aslinda,
*I'm always here,if you need me..

2006-07-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

May You Feel What I feel..

The days are so cold and lonely,
Could it be the wet and humid weather?
Or should i say it'z the seasons of my life,
Changing from Autumn to Winter..

These doubts I may never know,
But I know that someday & somehow,
My life will get better..

I looked at my old life,
I looked at different angles of it,
Left,right,front and back..

It was beautiful & lovely,
I knew it was,
For that was some of the lovely moments in my life..

But sadly,
it has to end..

The rain has to stop,
The sun must set,
June has to leave for July,
And the sentence has to end with a full stop,
and no longer a coma..

Perhaps that was my mistake,
I simply cared too much,
And gave my life to her..
But i didn't do it out of sympathy,
But i did it out of faith and love..

Eventually,
Maybe that was the reason why,
She crwaled over my head,
and start controlling everything..

Hmm..
I guessed everything happened for a reason..

But i leave my destiny to fate,
Let it decide when to open my gate,
It may be late,
But i know that is where my happiness lies..

I didn't meant to let it all out to her,
But i couldn't take it,
Thats why i have to let go..
At least part of me will feel better,
And i'm not trying to pull her down,
But by telling her mistakes,
I hope she will start learning her lessons..

Eventually,
She will be a better person in the future..

Now,
I know she feels down and sad,
But i know from what i have done,
It will help her in a way..
She is strong i noe..
you can do it..
I have never gave up on you..
*And i never will...

But somehow,
Till now,
I have yet to feel the special and everlasting feeling i felt,
about 4 years ago,
When i was in sec 1..

I was young and naive,
But i bet yar,
That was the best feeling i ever had,
And that person was special,
She was my first..

Maybe somehow,
I will feel dat way again,
Not now,not nxt year,
But i will wait,
I won't rush anymore..
I will be patient..

And when i thought that life is nothing,
I think again,
And when i look at my new friends,
I noe they will make my life worthwhile..

A new Life,A new story unfolds..

So now,
I'm closing the last chapter of my past..
I will let it go,
And let time heal it all..
This was the method she used on me,
to make me feel better..
and it worked..
Perhaps,
She still remained the best..
*Rahila..

And so,
Life goes on..

*thanks ilah and ayn for comforting me..
Appreciate it to the max..
Smilez..

I won't look back,
But i will always be up there,
Looking upon you..
Someday you will..
Someday..

2 more days to Chalet..

2006-07-08T02:10:00.000+08:00

Goodbye..
I'll remember you..

I look at the stars,
Maybe they could answer my doubts.
I look at the moon,
Maybe it will never stop shining hope on me.

Then,
I look at her,
Maybe I could give her a second chance?

Perhaps,
I could be the one to mend her broken heart?

Eventually,
I will be the one who gives her happiness?

And at the end of it all,
She will be loved again,
She will never stop smiling,
She will have the faith she lost,
And Will she,
Start the Rewind button,
And make everything goes back to square 1?

Ameer Hassaan,
That's My Name,
And the line of communication I have,
with people around me..

For me,
I believe that everyone in this world,
dead or alive,
black or white,
good or bad,
Is never perfect,
and always make mistakes..

And I never give up on these people,
I always believe,
That they deserve the golden second chance,
to make up for their loss,or mistakes,
that they have done..

I'm a Cadet Officer,
And I held responsibility,
of hundreds of cadets under me...

Some of them are good,i admit..
But there is a majority that make mistakes,
Make it once,twice or so,
Human beings will always make mistakes..

But i never lost the will of hope,
I always know that hope shines on me,
And i know that hope tells me,
The same for the rest..

That's why I never walk away from the doorway,
of those I know..
i will always be there to give hope,
And a life..
I never gave up on them..

But to accomplish that goal,
They carn do it alone,
But They need the support and morale,
of others that surrounds them..

The thing is,
they need our support,
they need our faith,
and importantly,
they need our trust..

but how many are willing to offer that chance,
to the poeple who has done wrong?

Few days ago,
I was troubled by a msg..
A msg that made me think so deep,
that made my heart think,
instead of feeling the emotions..

My ex,
She came back..
And she came back with open arms,
Wanting a reconcilation,
And a second chance..

I laid helpless these nights..
I couldn't sleep,
And i carn eat or drink,
I kept thinking,
what should i do,
should i fullfill her dreams and offer her love,
or should i tell her the truth of my heart,
and turn her down..

I was confused,
I didn't know what to do..

I asked Hafiz & Eric,
Hafiz said,"Perhaps",
While Eric said,"Forget it"..

Then,
after so much of thinking,
I decided to follow my heart..
I wanted to make a proper decision..

a decision that i won't regret,
a decision that will make me happy..

For 10 months i felt unhappy..
When she was young,
She throwed everything at me,
It's either her way or the highway..
She was the queen of my life,
and she ruled it,
that includes my life..

I was happy,
But why do i always feel sad?
Why do i feel lonely,
when i was there for her all the time?

Why did she do stuff that i didn't do?
Why does she always have to break my heart?
why?why?why?

Then,
After all these questions,
I knew what i really wanted..

I am happy with my life now..
I love my new friends..
I get to do things which i never did last time..

I felt free,
I didn't have to sacrifice anymore..
I can concentrate more on my studies,
friends,ncc and sports..

I get the freedom that was stolen from me..
I have won it back..

Now,
Im sitting for my o's again..
I wanna study hard,
The future is shining so bright on me..

I don't wanna miss a thing..

kak huda said,
that if i were to go back wif her,
I will be repeating my mistake,
and i will end up nowhere..

This time,
i am more awake..
And i finally listened to my heart,
after 10months of listening to hers..

Then i decided,
I don't wanna go back..
I wanna look forward..

Thanks for everything,
For your love,
your honesty,
and you smiles..

You will find someone,
I promise..

You will change into someone better,
I'll wait..

You will be loved more,
I know...

I won't give up on you,
trust me..

But now,
It's time to put a Full Stop to this..

Goodbye,
I'll always remember you..

*One last thing that i ever ask from you,
-If you Love me,Let Me go..

*Coz my heart has stop pumping for your love..
-No more..

Goodbye..
Fatin Hanani..

2006-07-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

The Idol That Touched my..
H-E-A-R-T! My Singapore Idol Hopeful,
Nurul Maideen!

Hey guys,
I watched Singapore Idol,
And guessed what,
One of the contestants managed to touch my heart!
And it's her allright!

It's Nurul..

She's so sweet and talented,
I'm gonna support your journey all the way,
all the best nurul,
This song is for you..

The Turning point of May..

2006-07-01T03:31:00.000+08:00

"Where Should I go?
Should I turn left,or right?"
To me,
Life as humans,
can be resembled as a Cable Car..

When it goes slow,
We wished that it would go faster,
But when it starts to move fast,
We always regret,and always say,
"We should have never wished,
For it to be fast".

To me,
Life as humans,
moves in a certain direction.
And it can also resembles a Cable Car..

God has confirmed the paths in our lives,
And began our live on a certain track..
But it'z us,humans,always mending and going off track..
And We always regret,and always say,
"We should have never gone,offtrack,
How i wish we could just turn it back".

To me,
Life as humans,
We meet people,from time to time,
and decide those we want to keep,
and those,we want them to leave...

A cable car has limited seats,
so as our hearts..
at one time,
we chose this group of frenz,
but after some time,
they are replaced by another group of frenz..
We may be happy,but why do we feel something amiss?
And they always regret,and they always say,
"I should have never let them leave,I should have held on tight,
But by a simple glance of decision,they're out of my sight.."

Humans..Humans..
We always live a life full of regrets,
But sometimes i wonder,
Why do we even have to regret,
when we can do something to prevent it..

But humans are hard bunch to change..
They may be selfish,and let their mind control them,
instead,of their heart..

Throughout the Millenium,
Centuries,
and decades,

Humans change as they adapt to surroundings..
As places modernised,
People started wearing clothes,
Places becoming much more beautiful,
And the earth becomes a better place to live in..

But as they change,
they forgot one thing,
they forgot about something important..
Something that makes them alive,
every min,and every second..
Something that lets them feel,
something that has a room for love,
and almost everything..

They could forgot to do their homework,
But they chose to forget,

Their "Heart"..

So wad i wrote today,
May just be normal..

If you read my entry with your mind,
You'll feel nothing,
But if you chose to read my entry with your heart,
You will feel everything..

That's why,
our mistake lies in us..
we let our mind control us..
we let our mind decide what's good for us,
wheter i should buy Pepsi,or should i buy Coke..
Wheter i should love her,and just leave her..

Our everyday life depends more on the mind..
Our mind is here to let us think,
In school,at work or even during soccer,
It lets us think,
making us smarter and brilliant..

But we should never let our mind decide what's good for us..
Cause it has limitations..
And it could only think,but can never feel..
That's why,in our life..
We always regret..

So remember,
in your life,
wherever you may go,
Give your Heart a chance,
Let it decide for you..

Becoz,

Mind=Think,

but

Heart=Feel...

These are two things we should abide in life..
Rmb,we can always prevent ourselves from regretting,
If we,
Give our Heart a Chance to feel..

*Our Mind gives us intelligence,
the ability to think,
*But our Heart gives us the ability of Love,
and almost everything..

Scientist prove that the Mind is the King of the Human Body,
Deciding everything for us..
But how far can intelligence bring you,
when you cannot feel,a single thing at all?
Datz why,
they always say,

"The strongest Muscle in the body,is our heart".

To Professor,
I'm glad things r alryte,
I'm sorry if I had anything to make u feel bad,
though things are okie,
I wanna tell u dat,
i am always here if you need me,
1 phonecall away,
1 Mrt station away,
and 1 Heart,
waiting,
to feel all the pain you feel,
and 1 Room in the heart,
to give a place for understanding..
I'm always here..
enjoy your holidays..

Smilez..

Sentosa Outing

2006-06-29T14:15:00.000+08:00

helluu the sweet people of the world!
Million apologies for my very late posting,
Was kinda busy wif Ncc,skool and family,
aniwaes,
here are the highlights of my life..

Friday-Saturday
23-24,
Ncc Specialist Course

Sunday
Daddy's Company Family Day
Sentosa..

Below are the pictures taken,
hope u'll cherish it..
cheers!

The very sweet & charming sister,Kak Shidah,

The almost beautiful kakak huda,the best sis you can get!

The only son of 4 sisters,and datz me..simply and only me..

Next after me is my younger sis,the 'cloned version of me'..the girl version i mean!

Last but not least,the youngest of all,the Princess of my fairytale,Nana!

The 3 muskateers,or the 3 stooges i must say?

Nana and so many buah,buah ape?

The 3 youngsters of the family..simplicity and natural..

Adik kesayangan abang..haha

Some monkeys visited us too on the cable car!

The native of Sentosa..sesat di singapore..

The merlion..why in the world they call it dat?

Skim gurl..haha..

The sisters,so loving together..

I am not a gurl,repeat,i am not a gurl!
Emo--

Hey,
so datz all i have for the time being..
Hope you enjoy my entry..
until next time..
take care..
:)

Missing a Shadow of Realms..

2006-06-21T13:45:00.000+08:00

Where you'd go?
I missed you so,
It's like it has been forever,
Since you were gone,
Please come back home...

Days may be cold,
As i sat upon a hundred nights,
Ears buzzing,my heart's beating,
And as i listen closely,
I asked myself,
What am i missing?

Days passed,
Then weeks and months came by,
Eyes twirling,my heart's confusing,
And as i sat closely,
I asked myself again,
What am i really missing?

Months went,
Which pushed as further and further away,
My mind panicks,and my heart is in pain,
And as i ran and ran,
I looked everywhere to find,
but when i asked myself again,
All dat i want but couldn't find,
is you..

And i asked myself again,
What am I missing?

Then my heart answered,
"It's her,it's her.."

Then I realised,
It was you dat i missed..

Heyya peeps,

Day was beautiful,
weather was cooling and refreshing,
Classes were great,
And Frenz were making music in your ears,
what more can i ask?
Than such happiness in my life?
Smilez..

Today performance was cancelled,
due to the rain..
Looking forward to next performance..
will be playing the song blind..
and my bro,
Mr Aizat is singing..

Am proud,
finally,
Me,Eric & Yazid could play a trio together,
playing sad,happy and even rap on a guitaric rhythm..
hehe..

talents & talents..

Am glad fana & ayn came back home safely,
Missed them so so much,
and felt the lonliness,
without their presence..
Welcome home girls..

To Fana,
Thanks for the gummies,
Btw,you really can scratch and tap my back well,
nearly slept..
Thanks so much..

To ayynyza,
Thanks for the 3 gifts,
He's really my idol,
and u brought him home to me,
nxt time jgn susah2 tau,
get more things for yourself,
and the t-shirt is really nyce..
3 cheers for you..

To Ayzat My Bro,
Sorry to hear dat your grandma has passed away,
Don't feel sad bro,
Someday, and somehow,
you gotta be strong and let it go,
Take this as a lesson to be learnt..
Humans are selfish,
they never really appreciate things,
when they are in front of our eyes,
and they start to regret,
when they start to leave..
Let this be a lesson,
learn it,
and teach this to whoever u may meet..
lotsa care..

Some philosophies dat I learned,
"The down,is a small,
and accompaniment,is escalating.."

weird huh?

but it's from a special person,
haha..u rawk sis..

-Professor Shak (whom i called iqah)

haha..

take carez..

Smilez always..

Great words from The Fallen

2006-06-15T16:00:00.000+08:00

I get weaker by the day,
But when I think of you,
And look at this picture,
I received a strength,
Dat pulls me from zero,
to hero..

-To angeL..

Maybe,
When I ask the stars tonight,
They might leave me with an answer,
Though they're up there so high,
yet they remained simple,
and an inspiration to me...

Friends are like stars,
They appear everywhere,
And they shine brightly as we do,
But when a group of stars come up together,
They formed beautiful things like the orion,
and much more stuff..

If one star is beautiful,
what can u call a group of amazing stars?

Ask me,
I will call it,
"Almost-Paradise"..
Smilez..

Today,
Was a day,
Quite Shaky for me..
It was getting better,
but slowly,
at an amazing rate..

The weather was cloudy,
And so was my spirit,
I was happy to go to skool,
But when i think more,
I suddenly felt more depressed..

Maybe it was just my heart,
Feeling sad,
And maybe it was my emotions,
That shed a tear,
causing me to feel so much misery..

But anyways,
I started my day fine,
With hopes and dreams..
I put aside what happened yesterday,
So that I could start a new day with my fwenz..

But it didn't go well,
It wasn't as bad as hell,
But few things i wish to tell,
I began to feel a bit unwell..

I thought I was strong,
And feeling alright..
But I learned a lesson today,
And i thanked that person for telling me..

Linda..

During break,
I was playing badminton,
with niza,aizat & Linda..
We were playing fine,
But somehow,
I was not playing,
But rather,
The dark-side of me has controlled me..

Lin mentioned,
Put all your ego aside,
And I was super slow,
and didn't noe wad she meant,
until when we msg just now..

and during floorball,
I was totally OFF-FORM..
HONESTLY...
i was not the man i should be..

I get tired easily,
My shoe's tapak has haus,
Making it slippery for me to run..
My shots sucks..
The stick controls me,instead of me..
And worst still,
I dribbled past 4 PLAYERS,
giving my team high hopes,
but upon finishing,
i GAVE IT ALL AWAY..

What was happening to me?
Where was the ameer hassaan,
The player who impressed the coach,
The player who speeds,dribble and shoots well?
The player who inspires and makes a difference?
And the Player,with number 7 on his back,
and passion in his heart,
Where is he?
where?

Then i thinked of Linda,
Maybe she was trying to tell me a message..
Maybe she wants me to change,
Maybe,
She's helping me in a way..

After nyte class,
met my old bandmates,
laughed here and dere,
and had a great time..
I missed them so much,
Why couldn't they join us in ite?
why carn any of my frenz replace them?

I was actually laughing,
and smiling..
But when i went home,
I became sad again..
depressed and introverted..

I thought I was the man,
but letting my emotions control me,
I turned to the dark-side..
Anger was my motivation,
but at he end of it all,
i got nothing..

a very powerful lesson,
i learnt today..

A message to my fwenz..

To: The Sluts Inc,The Handicapps,and others..
Don't worry about me,
I'm alryte,
and i'm okie..
I do not blame anyone of you..
you all are my fwenz..
things are a bit rocky,
But trust me,
if we all hold our hands together,
we will get out of this massive storm..

When i read my tag board,
I saw tags form people,
And when i read what they wrote,
I almost cried,
Coz they all cared for me..

Fana,
you're a very lively person,
It's not your fault,
And i don't blame you..
Lets make things better.

Hafiz,
my big bro,
you're right,
Somewhere & somehow,
The pain must stop..
I respect u,
for who u're,
and bro,
i was not mad at you,
thanks a lot for your concern..

Is,
Rarely you may talk to me,
But when i read what u tagged,
I was so touched,
u did care 4 me in a way..
we're not dat close,
but u had good intentions..
I salute you,
For being the man,
I dun blame nor am i mad at you,
thanks a lot for your concern..

Linda,
thanks so much for waking me up,
now i noe where i had drowned,
how deep it was..
thanks for offering your hand,
and helped me find my way through..
i really appreciate you nigga..
And i was not angry at you,
But thanks a lot for your efforts..

Shak,(iqah)
you're a very sweet person,
i admire your character,
you're a very mature person..
we were not close,
but somehow,
i just like being near you,
for i can feel the warmth and care,
you're a great soul,
i'm not mad at you,
and i hope things will get better..

Niza,(ayn)
I'm sorry if i had made you mad today,
but i'm glad things are better..
I'm sorry if i have been showing a sad face,
I was confused,sick and in a headache..
But I wanna thank u so much,
for being one of the most concerned frenz,
though u had problems,
you still cared for me..
thanks..
And i was never mad at you..
Smilez..

Aizat,
i'm glad bro,
since da day i entered your life,
you became a more sensible,patient and calm person..
Someday,i hope you would become a gentleman,
taking things easily with understanding..
do not let your emotions control you,
What hafiz say is right,
Do not stare at innocent people..
I will still be dere to guide you along,
and make u into a better man..
The pain will end,
Trust me..

Effy,(andy,fendi or pandi)
you're in a very difficult position,
To be in the middle of Sluts & Handicapps..
And to be equal,in each and every single way..
I noe how you feel,
I dun blame u for being closer to them,
coz when u're happy,it paints a smile in my heart..
Let your happiness be with you,
and you will enjoy life,to the fullest..
Bro,i'm never ever mad at you..
Coz you're my bro,
ANd Once Ameer's bro,
Forever will be ameer's bro..

Ilah,
you are the most innocent soul,
of the whole class,
you wanted love & care,
but never really get what you wanted..
I' sorry if life isn' dat great for you,
But someday it will,
trust me,
it will..

To all my fwenz,
Let us all hold hands,
and work together..
whatever has happened in the past,
let it be..and let it go..
why be O.C when we can be FRIENDS?
haha..let's forgive and forget..
Let's unite us one..
USe the chalet,
as a moment,
to live for..

Before i sleep,
I wanna remind my frenz,
Is,Shak & ayn may be dancers,
Hafiz,Me,Eric,aizat & yazid may be musicians,
Effy might be an artist,
Linda may be talented in lots of areas,
But just think,
If we combine everything together,
what do we get?

That is the answer i'm wanting to noe..
Till then,
Goodnytez..

I Wished I could,I Wished..

2006-06-14T12:20:00.001+08:00

"Facing the Realms of Chaos.."

Rested my cheeks,
As i held my hands,
To the One I will pray,
and to him i will say,
Oh Lord,Pls do,
Give my frenz their day,
And as to the back I may lay,
My life's so depressing,
So cloudy and grey...

My heart pumping,
And my ears buzzing,
I put down my guitar,
And I stopped singing,
Hearing the phone ring,
I let go,
Feeling heartless,
and disappointing...

Life isn't that great..
The tide has turned,
and the wave has hit us all.

One by one,
all my frenz will fall.
We were once called as one,
But now we're splitting,
becoming weaker,
and into smaller groups..

Firstly,
The handicapps..
we were boys from different backgrounds,
and different parts of Singapore..
but upon meeting,
fate was kind..
It filled in our emptiness,
with one they'd called happiness..

We had different talents,
and different gifts..

-Yazid could play soccer well,
and hit the guitar..
-Eric plays soccer with skill,
and hits three instruments...
-Aizat is an outgoing fellow,
and has a talent in singing..
-Fendi is gifted is ways of the arts,
he is sociable and helpful..

God made us meet,
For a Gift,
But now,
he is showing us the Curse..

After the happy beginning,
God puts in more events,
events dat will lead,
to every handicapp,
showing his true colours..

one by one,
they all showed..
and one by one,
problems start to arised..
one by one,
hatred and jealousy start to appear,
and finally one by one,
they all start to leave..

I made a promise,
that as long as i was in ITE,
I would give my frenz the best,
life could ever offer..

I would extend my abilities and talents,
to teach them,
and to guide them,
so dat they will have a better life ahead...

But why must all this happen?

I'm like a General in an army,
My responsibility is to plan and strategise..
For the Victory of my men..

I must plan against battles,
and win them,
as my men excel through their way..

But in this battle,
it's different..
Who am i fighting against?
Who am i fighting for?
What is the cause of the war?
Issit really a war?
But the worst part i asked,
what benefit will this battle give me?
or even my frenz?

I stood confused,
not knowing what to do..
I must think and think,
of plans to improve the life of others..

Some people have different characteristic,
and you're bound to have differences..
but the most important tactic,
is being understanding..
Once u understand them,
it is better to deal with them..
And u must accept the fact,
that everyone is different in his and her own way..

Today something happen at skool,
and unfateful event which led much deeper,
into the depths of battle..
Aizat was fuming with anger and rage,
ready to strike anytime..
While eric was so angry and frustrated,
that he calmed himself by sleeping..

what happened,
was useless trying to say..
I was not mad or blamed anyone for this..
But deep inside,
i felt hurt,
i felt sad and disappointed,
that something like this would happen..

But as a gentlemen,
i take things naturally..
never will i settle things on my own,
and never will i take the law,
into my own hands..

I will be patient..
Mummy told me,
Let people do bad things to you,
let them..
but most importantly,
you dun strike back..
But u return them back,
With hope and love..
u must always be patient..

I'm glad dat i am one today..
Let them do what they want..
Coz i'm sure,
It's not my authority to decide..
But I will leave it to God to settle..
in His powerful and Fair way..
Sesungguhnya Allah itu Maha Kaya..

God won't leave me in the dark,
He will guide me,
and find the cure..

I won't bicker,
nor will i start a fight,
I don't talk behind my frenz,
And i won'thurt them..

That's why,
I have to find a way..
Though i'm sacrificing my feelings,
I must do what a man must,
And give the love to my fwenz..

As on today,
Whatever will be,
will be..
The future's not for me to see..
And i will leave it to Allah,
For He is trully the One..

To effy and ayn,
thanks for trying to tell..
It's not that i do not want to,
I wished i could,
I wished..

Someday,
Somehow,
I will make things alright,
Forever..
-I live upon this phrase..

But sadly,
My conflict with Fatin Hanani will never end..
But now it has,
I noe i wasn't being honest by doing this,
but i have to,
for the sake of her happiness..
The entry i posted about her,
was all a make-up..
I had to do it,
Coz i want her to hate me,
So dat she can live life better..
But now it's too late for explanations,
But i never regretted,
I'm glad i could do something for Fatin,
though my entry was a lie,
Her life is surely better now..
I had to do it Fatin,i had..
Take care for now..
You have a life to live,
ANd remember,
i always told u,
dat i will do anything to make your life better?
And so i did..
you will live better..
I'm sorry for making a lie,
but for your happiness,
anything i will..
Take carez..
-Feelings will nver fade..

My Life is short

2006-06-13T09:00:00.000+08:00

The Handicapps,
Feat Dani-Fendi

It's amazing how time flies.
So fast,and at times,
we didn't even realise dat it's gone..

And when it really happens,
Why do we start to regret?
Why do we blame things and others,
when we are the ones,
who never really appreciate it,
when it's there?

Why do we cry all those tears,
And start having all these fears,
when throughout all this years,
We hold the power,
to make a difference?
why does it all happens?

Does a tear means so much?
What does it really defines?
Does it shows dat we're really sad?
Or shows dat we r actually too happy?
why does it all happens?

Emotions represent our feelings,
In each and every season,
Regardless of the weather,
it never fails to paint a weather,
of how we might feel...

Sometimes I wonder,
why does this all happens?
And when i start to think about it,
Eventually I knew,
That everything happens for a reason..

The People I meet,
And the Events that happens,
It all happens for a reason..
And the circumstances that's within,
Sometimes then i ask,
what is it to burn?

Life is so complicated,
What effy said is true,
Why must we be like the O.C and One Tree Hill?
When we can be so happy like Friends?

Thousand questions may appear,
and all my answers will disappear...
Still,i'm finding the cure to the illness,
the medicine dat will ease the life of everyone...

When One problem is solved,
another arises..
It's like a Merry-go-round ride,
of endless obstacles..

It's like,

When I found The door,
I forget to bring my keys,

And when I have My keys,
I found the wrong door,

But when i have my key,
and I found the correct door,
The door lock has been changed,
and i can no longer open it,
for i was all too late..

well,
i believe everything happens for a reason,
even to love,
it does..
I will never be late again,
I will bring my key,
and unlock the door,
and show the correct path,
so that my friends can find,
the everlasting happiness within..
And dat,is a promise..

As long as it happens,
on the soil of ITE Clementi,
It becomes my responsibility,
and duty...

A Say To My Frenz:

Shak,
I'm sorry to hear this very sad news,
Though it's all unexpected,
It's bound to happen,
Accept it as a test from God,
Someday,Somehow,
You will find someone better.
With your warm smile,
And Very Caring Character,
you will find someone better,
I know..
Trust Me..

Anne..oops!
Ayyn(Nizza),

Always remember,
You always hold the great power of freedom,
in your plain but beloved hands..
It may seem nothing,
But the greatest freedom a person can get,
Is to make the choice,
of his/her own will..
And noone should do it for you,
Always listen to your heart,
feel it,wherever it may think or go,
And when it sings a lullaby to you,
Listen,coz yr heart is doing a favour,
To let u noe wad it wants,
And at the end of the day,
I'm always here,
for you..

Ilah,
Dun be sad,
Coz i'm not mad,
And dun feel bad,
About that,
I'm cool,and were never angry..
i'm always smiling,and feeling happy..
you're a great person,
and i look forward to knowing you more..
cheers!

A Tribute To an awesome Victory

2006-06-12T04:07:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to the England Team!
They won Paraguay 1-0 yesterday,
with an own goal..
though England did not scored,
it's still a victory to be honoured...

3 Cheers to England!!!

My Idol & Hero,David Beckham,Captain of England

David Beckham,one of the greatest player in the world

David,

you're the best player i knew..

and trust me,

noone can replace you..

CheeRs :)

Funeral For a Friend

2006-06-12T03:59:00.000+08:00

To Fatin Hanani

Just a few lines to tell you how I feel,
A few lines to show I care.
But what good will these few lines do,
If you were never really there?

These words will just be written,
Never noticed or read.
All my feelings down on paper...
All the thoughts that fill my head.

Whispered softly to myself
So no one else can hear
Only I can see what's written,
Only I can feel my tears.

Shutting out the world around me,
Only I can hear my cries,
Writing my feelings down on paper,
My heart starts to die.

I'm dying inside
But no one seems to know,
I'm trying to hold on...
But I'm slowly letting go.

But no matter what,
you're an amazing soul,
we used to be one,
now we've split into two...

It's alright,things are great,
life tastes better now,
I will always rmb the date,
the time and our moments...

but my Mummy told me,
that life offers so much,
and if you think i was great,
dere will be better ones out there...

All will be waiting for you,
all will start their love for you,
you will have a new story and chapter,
with you and love,as their author...

Take care now,
as i make my final goodbye,
I wish to say,
Take Care and all the best,
I will never ever go back to you,
My love for you has died in february,

Don't blame me,
it hurt so much,
and it disappeared,
and so remember,
u will find someone better...

Goodbye..
hearts..
I'll remember,
--Fatin Hanani

Her smiles & laughter...
and her cute & lovely face..

p.s
If you ever wanna know why I went for others,and not you?
This is my answer:
Because they are everything that u're not,and that's why I,
love them..
-Families,
-Friends,
-Ncc
-Soccer
-and everything..

LiFe taste tasteless,so drink Coke!

2006-06-12T03:58:00.000+08:00

When you wake up,
what's the first thing you'd think of?
would you find dat something's missing?
or possibly your heart is not at place?

After you wake up,
what's the second thing you'd do?
would you recall back what was missing?
or simply leave yr heart thinking alone?

After you have bath and freshen up,
The third thing you'd do,is to remember.
You will know what has been missing,
and you won't leave yr heart alone...

And after knowing what to do,
you then ask yourself,
Will i do this,or will i not?
And if i do,i will make a difference,
And if i don't,i will simply,
be the one,
who complains of being different,
from the others...

A Very Gd Afternoon to Boys & Girls...

Had a wonderful outing yesterday.
as usual,
i went on with an outing with my class,SD..
yeah!
it was super-duper fun..
i would say 2 thumbs up,
if possible,i'll raise more..
but i only have two thumbs..
haha..

Aight,
and so,
yesterday,
we met at Orchard,
and had lunch at Far East Plaza,
at one of the "Food Court",
kinda weird,the food tastes plain.

And I met up with my floorball seniors,
Yazid,
Fida,
Shikin,
& Naqiah
Oh gosh,these names r very familiar to me..

anyways,

after lunch,
we decided to play pool at Merdian,
and walked all the way to Somerset..
along the way,
met Kak Huda at her workplace,
and was given a free but special drink..
she makes it very nyce,
she even wrote my name and Mr Handsome,
haha..thanks kakak..

then made our way to Meridian,
upon reaching,
the place was full,and so small..
we had to book and wait for some time..
the girls did not wanna play,
and 4 a moment,
we had to do some brainstorming..
think,think and think..
finally i came up with an idea,
of going to Marina..

The guys can play pool,
and the girls,bowling..
furthermore,it's side by side..
we will have a great time..

so after playing a bit of catching,
went on a journey of almost an hour,
to reach marina..
along the way,
stopped at coffee bean to buy some drink,
camwhore a bit,here and dere,
and also catwalk a bit..haha..
it's fun though,
wlaking wif your frenz,4 about 50miles,
i wouldn't mind,
coz yr frenz r always dere 4 u..
aight..

we then reached marina at bout 7pm,
played pool insted of bowling,
coz it's crowded dere..
had some problems at first,
but settled it within seconds..

yeah..
had a totally great time..
i won hasyim and yazid,
and i was perfectly good,
for hitting the white ball into the holes,
imagine dat..my oppenents getting free ball,
all the time?

haha..
then met azhar and his fren!
haha..i was happy meeting him..
he's such a great guy to mingle with..
hope he cums to the chalet...

after all, the tiring events,
some headed home,
and some went to esplanade to chill..
only the survivors made it..
yeah..
and during dat tym,
i was happily andpaying hard attention to azhar,
he has a special and unique way of speaking..

he can make the whole group laugh..
trust me..
Shak is honoured and lucky to have hym,
and i bet,Shak will smile throughout her life..
hehe..3 cheers for azhar..

yeap..
then,
we all went home..
heading to our own,
and seperate ways..

One lesson i learnt dat Nyte,
"Life tastes tasteless,
so drink coke,
and it will taste better.."
haha..thanks azhar..

The day of 6/6/06..

2006-06-07T11:20:00.000+08:00

Today,
6/6/06
a very unique number..
dat may happen only once,
in the millenium..

ryte now,
i am 16,going on 17..
i may not live dat long to witness dat unique date again,
and so,here i am enjoying this day to the fullest..
before i continue about my day,
here are some pictures which i had not uploaded..
check it out..

The Beach Flower Girls,me and eric trying to act pretty...
Man of the day..me in a formal suit..
Me & a very special friend,ILah and me..showing her hp..

Where'd you go?

2006-06-07T11:15:00.000+08:00

a hundred nights I may nt sleep,
to wait and gaze 4 a ver special star...
but as i looked and turned,
i just couldn't find..
where you are now,
and what's in yr life...

I made a mistake once,
when u opened up,
i simply walked away..
u were so sincere and caring,
and datz wad makes u so so special..

where'd you go?
I missed you so..
it's like it has been forever,
since u were gone..
plz come back home..

-For a very special person..
(borned in 1989..)

hey..
skool was great today,
amazing & beautiful..
frenz sure do light up my day..
i really treasure this frenz i have..
we came from diff background,
and things might be rocky in the start,
but as we moved on,
we are now experiencing the true nature of life..

lessons were boring,
tried my best not to sleep..
kept thinking of mummy,
couldn't bear to upset her..

yeah..
and so,
after all the lessons had ended,
it was movie tym!
haha..went inside the lounge,
and god,it was so packed light sardines..
sardine?sounded like sadrina..haha..

yupz,
then we watched a korean horror,
which i jumped when i was scared,
hehe..but the movie was kinda boring,
until we switched to date movie..
haha..damn it'z good..

it was super-duper- funny..
but a pity we had to leave early for lessons..
so yar..
went for bfd...
and guess wart,
we met the teacher again..
i slept totally the whole lessons,
and guess wart,
i dreamt dat i was going rock climbing..
weird weird and weird...

yeah..
after that,
we all went home,
wanted to eat at first,
but mummy cooked,
sohad to go home and eat..
sorry ilah for dat..
and god,effy was really hungry..
but he's kinda cute..
especially when he does the goofy laughter..
goota hear it more man..

yupz..

went home with the lady & 3 heroes..
i wanted to be kiasu and so,
i ran inside when the train arrived..
i managed to seat..and was feeling happy..
coz usually,i was standing..
and for a day..i felt happy..

went to marsiling wif daddy yazid..
and to all the guys out dere,
some where in marsiling,
they sell cheap gatsby wax at only $2.10!
gotta check it out man..
hell yeah..

upon reaching home,
i ate dinner,
and rested..
and thought about the day,
and my feelings..
and somehow,
my heart misses dat someone..

Thoughts for my frenz..
Aizat:
Mr B is really an amazing guy..
somehow,i can connect well with hym..
one thing we share in comment,
is dat we both r CLT's..
he is very sociable..
when i first met him,
i thought he was a mat and gangsta,
but no,he is a very nyce man..
with lots of stories to tell,
we can talk anything under the sun..
haha..yeah..and,he likes dat certain someone..
i will support him,and offer him guidance..
may u have the best in life my brother..

then..
I kept thinking bout her,
I don't know why..
it has been months since we met nor msg..
the last tym i met her was when we had a titans gathering..
and the death of her uncle & auntie really made her sad..
i managed to counsell her,but only wif words..
i know i could have done more..
but i wasn't man enuff..
i wasn't there for her when she needs me..
she is like so sincere and nyce..
she's special and so amzing..
things could have started between us,
but i couldn't,for she's taking A'levels..
i wanted her to study,i don't want her to end up like me...
so wherever she is,
i wish her all the best..
i will find u sumday..
i promise..

Pictures of my heart..

2006-06-06T10:00:00.000+08:00

Friends may come and go,
so don't just sit there and wait,
treasure your time with them,
and make the moments unforgettable..

*Pictures,
thanks to Fana,ayn & Dani Fendi..
you guys rock so much..

well,here are the pictures of my performances,
and the frenz of my life...
check them out..

The Happiest MAn alive & LIn..tHey r so sweet seh..

The Man who sold the world..the vocalist of the day...

*thanks ayn 4 the pictures!
3/4 handicapps,without the lead singer and drummer..

The girls of SD: ayn,fana,Lin,Shak & ilah...
The drummer and the brother i look up to...
His name is Is,haha..the dancer..
Next Top model..Lin,the stylo-milo gurl..
The Handicapps versus the Sluts Inc.
Yazid and Lin..oh yar,and Hasyim too!

ThE rIsE & ShiNe oF a boY,and His Fans & Frenz

2006-06-04T12:25:00.000+08:00

Hey :)
Hey :)
Hey :)

It'z been time since i last update..
and so,
i'm gonna share lotsa good good news to ya!

Floorball:
Hafiz made it as the team's goalkeeper!
3 cheers 4 sweet revenge!
And me,
i scored 3 goals,
and impressed the coach real much...
he said i had pretty good moves and speed..
3 cheers 4 me too!

and this is the update for Friday,2nd June 06..

It was a very memorable day for all of us..
it was a day full of hope,smiles and happiness..
guess wart,
it was my first ever performance in skool!

let me tell ya..
once upon a time..
4get it,it's maing me sleep..

aniwaes..
I,eric & yazid were playing guitar,
when one of the band members,
came up to me us and asked wheter we wanna performed or not,
it was a moment of truth,

it's either we do or don't..

if we don't,
we may never get this chance again,
if we do,
it will be our chance to shine in the skool...

after a min of thoughts,
we finally said "yes"...
we were told to pick one song to jam,
and meet up with other band at 6.00pm..

yes..we hour about 8 hours to prepare..
in the class,
we couldn't study..
and during bfd,
i was scolded by teacher..
due to a lame reason..
i almost cried man..
i really respect her..
but she brought it down by yelling at me..

but aniwaes..
we spent hours practising,
we chose the song blind at first,
but then we changed it,
coz there pitch problem here and dere..

and guess wart,
in the studio,
i played all types of instruments..
i didn't know i could..
like the bongo,tabla,chimes,
xylephone,trumpet,and lots more..
but the best,
i played was the piano..
i couldn't find any violin,
but nvm..

then,
we all prayed solat asar,
to get guidance from god b4 the performance..
after make up here and there,
we were all set to go..

as the sun sets,
people start to rush in,
parents,students and more..
everyone was watching..
as they had a bit of dinner..
we were the last to performed,
but we were never afraid..

1st performance,
Malay Dance

2nd Performance,
Clementi band..
played all types of songs..

last performance,
us..

but the best part was,
when we performed,
all the people gathered,
and cheered for us..
the thing was,
we were just new and fresh peeps..
yet,lots of them were supporting us..
and dat,is the nikmat of praying..
thank you God..

and then,
we sang..
the song by Peterpan,
"Mimpi yang sempurna"
and
"Mungkin Nanti"...

b4 i sang,
i wore the blazer dat the previous vocalist was wearing..
as it covered me,
i felt that luck and hope was dere too..
and as i grabbed my guitar,
i rmbered the times where i used to perform,
in unity..it gave me encouragement,
and motivation to perform..

i then looked at the audiences,
and as i nodded,
yazid strummed the guitar..

"mungkinkah,bilaku ku bertanya.."

the audience were cheering out loud..
the quiet became noisy,
the bored became excited,
and the ordinary,
became the extra-ordinary..
people changed,
and if i'm not wrong,
they were all singing along wif me..

it was a moment dat i will never 4get..
and the best part was,
a girl came up to the stage,
and offered me a flower!
i was so touched!
this meant dat i had done a great job,
for only me received it..i'm happy..

and i dedicate this song to all my frenz..
and the most important lesson is,
dat it doesn't matter how good u sing,
but it is the fans dat support u counts..
for a star is useless without any support..

and dat,
i wanna thank God,
my First ever Fan,
Fana!
and my families..
Eric,
Yazid,
Aizat,
Ilah,
Ayn,
Lin,
Shak,
Hafiz,
Hasyim,
and all the people who supported us..
without u,there is no me..

we then took lotsa pics,
gonna upload it soon..
and the best part ever,
was seeing my bro,aizat,
so so the happy!
hehe..after taking pics wif lin,
he told me dat he couldn't sleep..
u will know when u see his face in the pic..
it was like he is getting married..
haha..

aniwaes,
all the best to u bro aizat,
if there's a will,dere is always a way..

that's all folks,
and no matter wad,
i will never forget the fans,
who cheered 4 me..
let this be a new beginning,
and the birth,
of ameer hassaan..

Love u guys..
now this is wad i call,
the art of performing..

My life is always getting better,
and it will always will..
how about u?

where's the wind?

2006-05-31T13:05:00.000+08:00

The wind was there,
on this warm and lovely Tuesday...
Guiding me wherever I may go,
It will always be here,I know...

Greetings...

skool was fyne today,
everything went in circles as usual,
after class we had lunch,
and after lunch,
we went to the back of the skool to chill,
and played our games,
like how we normally did...

Guess wart,
I played Volleyball today,
hehe..with Fana and my Dad,Yazid..
as we waited for thinking skills,
we spent our tyme by playing,
and everything goes in circles again..

And this is true,
Dat BFD is totally bored..
i gotta agree with effy with this..
the boredom clouds my mind,
but i had to open up in order to concentrate..

After class,
we all went back our seperate ways..
My heart wasn't at place today,
coz there's things dat i need to discuss wif..
so i met up with ilah and had a long chat wif her,
all the way to bedok..haha..we took bus 14,
which i wanted 7,
but nvm..

I really feel bad for ilah,
like..things were great in the first few weeks..
but now,
it may nt look the same animore..
in skool,
she is always alone most of the time..
and i know that the feeling of lonliness really hurts,
and so i tried to push away the lonliness frm her..

I don't know what's really happening,
but I hope things will be fyne again..
i want to see everyone like how we used to be,
in the first few orientation weeks..
it's like so nyce and lovely..

After much experiences and observations,
i realised that love is a very fragile thing,
it's beautiful by nature,
but otherwise,
it could be very dangerous..
one wrong move,
and it could destroy everything..

someday,
and somehow,
as long as i'm in clementi,
and before i leave the skool in January,
I will make things better again..

P.S,
thinking bout John Mayer,
he is really a great musician..
thanks hafiz for introducing hym to me..
you're a great bro..
will i be the next John Mayer?
haha..god knws..

Wishlist
-Make it to the floorball team,
-Get my first Violin
-Make it through and be a Vocalist of the
Clementi Rock Band..
-Make my friends happy and smile always..

WhO aM I?

2006-05-28T12:45:00.000+08:00

I was made for a reason,

And was given a gift,and a curse..

And after all the damages had taken place..

I'm half the man i thought dat i would be..

And after all u that you had broken,
what is left of me?

-To A Certain Someone..

Raindrops keep Falling On mY heaD...

2006-05-27T10:00:00.000+08:00

Tears are just like the rain..
when they are too heavy,
they will let go..
and fall upon the dry and sad soil...

Friday,

a day which i favoured..
the day dat i was borned..
i came into this world on a friday,
and i will die too,on a friday..
somehow,my instincts are telling me something..

after friday prayers,
i went back home,
was walking towards clemanti MRT,
with my brother,Yazid..

things were okie between us,
but i can still sense some sadness in his eyes..
we hardly talk like how we used to..
coz of the issue dat shook the class..

but slowly,
he managed to open some topics,
and asked me bout life and her..
"everything was great", i'd said..
"how are yours?"

from silence,
we broke into laughter..
i missed those times..
i really wondered where it all went to..

what happened?
oh my..how could i not wipe those sadness away?
i blamed myself for all that happened..
everything was great and fyne..
but somehow,i messed it all up..
how could i?
no,why did i?

as i closen my ties with him again,
i swore to myself,
dat never will i make this happen again..
i will always help people,
and put a smile on their face..
what happened to policy of honesty?
it was buried,and now i'm digging it back..
for the sake of my brotherhood,
and happiness..

as i dropped at yew tee mrt,
the rain started pouring heavily..
i could take a cab or a bus..
but i decided to walk through the rain..
i wanna wash away all my tears and fears..
as i crossed the rears,

i embraced the cold and tenderness of the rain..
now i noe how effy might have felt,
when he too walked in the rain..
i walked slowly,
and got drenched in this cold season..
let it be..
whatever might happen..
let the raindrops wash every single,
dark side of me..

and as i entered my crib,
wiping my face with a dry towel,
i looked myself in the mirror,
and gazed at my face,
my brown eyes.
my thick and short eyebrows,
my curvy nose,
my gentle cheeks..

God made me for a reason..
i had a gift,and a curse..
use any of it i could..
but will it be for me?
or will it be for my frenz..
and as i looked at the stars dat night,
i was captured by the beauty and dazzling light,
of the stars,
and heavenly reflection of the moon..

Aim for the moon,
coz even if you might miss,
you will lang among the stars..

and as i sat on this chair,
i stared at what i had wrote,
all this while,
from up above..

and after much thinking,
i realised,
what kind of man,
i really wanna be..

Highlights Of The Vocalist

-MAde through the choir audtions,
confirmed,and now part of the team..
-Made through the Rock Band Audition..
Waiting for results,
Sang Blind by Lifehouse,
and Mimpi yang Sempurna...
-Part of the Floorball School Team,
No. 7 of the Team..

P.S
Congrats to Effy,
4 scoring a goal in the practice..
To Aizat,(Mr B)
Never Give up,
though she's taken,
there is always a word called,
"hope"..

His mistakes,my correction..

2006-05-23T14:00:00.000+08:00

Starlight,
Starbright,
the first star dat i may see tonight..
i wished i may,i wished i might,
to have the wish,
i wished tonight..

Emo,emo,emo,
when i'm sad,
u'll surround me..
making me feel depressed,
but at the same time,
u merge me wif all da sad songs and poems..

i'll start to think of the past,
and wonder how it all end so fast..
but with emo around,
u gave me lights and sound,
to make my own and newly songs..

heyz peeps..
skool was great today..
and guess wart?
i made it to the floorball school team!
haha..life is so beautiful..i really admire it..

and guess wart,
among all the numbers,
i was given my-all time favourite,
and fated number..
"Seven-7"..

fate i might say,
coincidence might interupt..
but as long as i shine my name up high,
the number will always be my guide..

i scored 2 amazing goals as a beginner,
the coach was impressed,
the seniors were proud,
and my peers were shocked..
hehe..God was with me,
and i never failed to shout,
"alhamdulilah",when i scored..
haha..thanks mum 4 yr lectures..

today,
was fyne..
skool started at 8am wif p.e,
i went to skool,and at clementi,
bumped into the beautiful,
Ms Ilah..and so,we went to skool together..
chatted along the way,i really had a nyce tym..
she really had beautiful eyes..

upon reaching skool,
changed to my gear,
wore my ankle and knee guard,
i have been "sick" lately..
went 4 run around the skool,
and proceeded wif soccer..

we really had the match of our lives,
when the boys meet the men,
dribble here and dere,
went past through peeps,
and scoring goals,
dat was awesome..
my skill had improved,
but i'm looking for more knowledge..

then as usual,
attended class..
i received my first ca today..
guess wad,
and Gods willing,
i got A1 for my test!
3 cheers 4 sweet revenge!

haha..
am proud of myself..

class then ended at bout 1pm,
was suppose to go for floorball,
but me and fendi decided to skip..

we decided to chill wif our peeps!
-Fana (she rocks baby!)
-Ilah :)
-Lin
-syafiqah
-ayn
-hafiz
-yazid
-fendi
-is
-and me!

we had the time of our lives!
we had lunch at Jurong Point,
and later all reunited at Banquet..

i really felt at home with them,
they are like my second family..
really take m hat of them..
haha..
and fana,
she really rocks!

we planned to have chalet during the holidays..
hope it will happen,
and i will definitely cum..
bringing my guitar and songs,
i hope to introduce them my ideas and talents..
haha..sumday,sumhow,
hope it will happen..

well,
life is unpredictable,
sometymes its good,and sumtymes it may be bad..
one moment she says goodbye,
and next,
she regrets and comes back to you..

to the person,
in this world,
people hardly accept 2nd chances..
once it's gone,it is gone..
and no way it can cum back..
i rmbered,yr old fren,
said dat he wants a reunion,
and u look forward to it..
but yr hope was crashed when his brother said,
"selepas aku ludah,aku tak akan jilat balik"..
u lost hope,and gave up everything..

like i always said and promised you,
dat dere is always hope no matter where u go,
or where u may be..
and my patience was the root of my quality,
of forgiveness..
and today,i wish to tell u this..
1 year ago,yr old fre said dat line..
and today,
i would say my own version..

"selepas kau ludah,mungkin tiada sesiapa,
yang mungkin menjilatnya lagi..
tapi nasibmu tidak akan berulang lagi..
kerna setelah air ludah itu bertempiaran di lantai,
tanpa disentuh,atau ditiup,
akan ku mengambilnya kembali,
dengan tanganku sendiri..
degan sepenuh keikhlasan di hati..
dan beritahumu,
agar jangan berhenti berharap,
kerna ia sentiasa berada,
dalam hati mahupun jiwa,
teatp kekal,dan abadi.."

i will always be here if u need me..
as long as i'm still breathing,
i promise..